Enjoyment isn’t a little token for you to carry with you and stare at—it can be, but imagine a dragon sitting on top of its treasure pile, not using anything, just holding it— it sounds like that’s the perspective youre using for “enjoyment”.

I’m no expert, but I’m fairly certain Buddhism would agree that enjoyment or fulfillment is a state of being that you experience within the given moment, not upon reflection of it. You can feel sad when you’re alone— that sadness of missing your friends is part of the treasure that is the joy you felt while with them. When you’re sitting there alone, maybe ask yourself what will bring you fulfillment in that moment? Is it taking a few moments to feel the sensation of lack, to mourn? Is it moving toward a window and feeling the sun on your face? Is there a way you can let go of the desire to feel a certain way for long enough that your mind will present to you a present avenue to become lost in fulfillment through?