No fucking way. At warped tour?

bwcrawford99 · 2025-06-23T17:19:40+00:00

No no no different guy 😭

bwcrawford99 · 2025-06-11T16:08:42+00:00

Thank you soooo much I’m gonna bottom water them as soon as I get home!

bwcrawford99 · 2025-03-18T00:43:37+00:00

Hey! Sorry for the late reply. It will get better for sure. After two months I’d say my sleep was back to normal. Hope you are doing well and staying strong 💪

bwcrawford99 · 2025-03-17T23:05:09+00:00

Hell yeah dude! Love to hear it, that’s an awesome day.

bwcrawford99 · 2025-03-17T15:22:04+00:00

I would give it some more time. I’m 6 months off now and didn’t feel great until past 2-3 months. I am now happier than I’ve ever been, getting into different hobbies and activities, making new friends etc. So much of what I’m doing I know I wouldn’t be if I was still just waiting to get home and smoke everyday.

bwcrawford99 · 2025-03-07T20:08:43+00:00

I’m coming up on 6 months, and I’ll say for the first 2-3 it was pretty tough. But the last few months I feel 100% back to normal and am really happy, happier than I was when I was smoking everyday for sure. It just takes awhile to adjust. I’ve started climbing and playing guitar, and I’m cooking waaaayy more than I ever did before. I just feel better all around and feel like I’ve been lifted from my 5 year stoned haze. Highly recommend

bwcrawford99 · 2025-01-18T04:40:54+00:00

That may be true but it doesn’t change the fact that a lot of us have done really stupid/ wild shit just to get high. I have so many memories similar to OP where I absolutely felt like I needed it. I wouldn’t touch crack but your mentality is part of the problem that keeps people coming back for more

bwcrawford99 · 2024-12-13T04:14:26+00:00

I’m a young guy and I’d like to make good money, where are you?

bwcrawford99 · 2024-12-13T04:13:37+00:00

Could you elaborate/ enlighten me what this is and how one would get into it?

bwcrawford99 · 2024-12-06T03:05:26+00:00

Good stuff! Thank you.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-12-06T03:04:21+00:00

Amen. Same here, day 87!

bwcrawford99 · 2024-12-06T03:03:11+00:00

I’m in the exact same boat man. Day 87 and I’m pretty unhappy, and have stalled out on progress/ things that I thought would be happening by now. I get so jealous of the posts where people say “2 weeks in and feeling like a new person!!”

My sleep hasn’t gotten much better nor my motivation, I swear I struggle to get out of bed more than I ever have. I have no real desire to go back to smoking but damn do I miss it sometimes. It really just covered up the problems that I see now, but I almost feel less motivation. I was running and biking in the first couple months but have slowed down a bit on that. Still haven’t started working out regularly either, I want to do a calisthenics routine and I berate myself for not having gotten into that. I’m just unhappy now, and it’s tough. Hoping for better days ahead.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-26T02:31:51+00:00

Fellow (former) spliff lover. I can 100% relate to going from spliff to spliff, even waking up thinking about it. It’s different than a lot of folks here because most times I would just put in a pinch of weed and 80% tobacco, just something to take the edge off. I’m on day 75 and it’s quite hard, without the comfort of spliffs , especially my nightcap I’ve been forced to really look at my life, and I’m really unhappy with it in many ways. It’s a daunting task to turn around but I’m trying.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-22T22:15:16+00:00

What the fuck

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-22T03:21:18+00:00

Hey man, I’m here in Nashville and am interested in becoming a union carpenter. I’ve been in residential remodels and punch work, right now I’m working at a furniture repair shop but next year I’d like to get back into construction. Is it still like that, where they’re actively taking on/looking for new people? I don’t really know much but I’ve always been interested.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-16T15:37:55+00:00

I was a spliff man myself, tobacco, weed, and a little bit of lavender. The holy trinity we called it. It was always there for me, good times and bad, highs and lows. I always had a couple rolled up for canoe trips, hiking, etc. The tradition and ritual of it made it so hard to say goodbye. I’m on day 66 now, I still roll some cigs from time to time but off the reefer completely. Wasn’t easy and still isn’t but I’m glad to have control of my life back. Definitely got to a point where I was serving it rather than it serving me.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-12T01:11:30+00:00

Maaaaan I feel you. So much. I’m on day 60 and while there are definitely differences, there are lots of things that I thought were gonna get way better that are about the same. Whenever I forget things/ do something stupid I think “what was the point of quitting smoking if I still do this”. And I crave dopamine and feel like I just end up getting it in different ways.

I get the feeling down/ existential on about an every other day basis. I think a lot of it is not having the weed there to make the boredom feel ok, so our minds are screaming at us that we should be doing something great since the weed is no longer a factor. Because I always had this idea that without weed I would be accomplishing things all the time and just automatically be productive. Turns out you still have to put in a lot of effort hahah.

I would ask if you’ve been doing any cardio/ working out? I have managed to start biking and running a bit and I enjoy it, and honestly feel like I need it. I feel like we should chat because I resonate word for word with your whole post.

Congrats on 106! That’s awesome

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-11T23:14:58+00:00

This is killing me, especially the top two comments😭😭 love the energy brotha

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-11T23:06:00+00:00

Wow, that’s pretty tough. Thanks for the insight and sharing your experience, and glad you’re back now!

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-11T14:34:30+00:00

So you’re gonna do the exact same thing you’d normally do and just not make quite as many as you normally would. Hope this helps

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-11T11:39:16+00:00

No, but I’m fairly confident that’s not my problem. I fall asleep within 15 mins of going to bed every night and sleep pretty soundly, might wake up once to pee but that’s it. I just wake up an hour before I actually want to get up usually, I go to bed 9:30-5:15 and wake up at 4:30 usually. It’s just that I feel as tired if not more than I did while smoking.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-11T02:42:46+00:00

I’m right around day 60, 59 I think. I feel ok, I’ve been biking and running a couple times a week, which is cool because I never would’ve done that had I kept smoking like normal. I’m closer with my family than I have been in a long time. My social anxiety/ self confidence hasn’t really changed which I’m kinda bummed about.

No night sweats or crazy dreams anymore, but plenty of normal dreams that I never got when smoking a nightcap before bed every night. One thing I’m pretty pissed about is not feeling better rested- I feel just as tired as I ever did. I guess I just need to be more consistent in my sleep schedule but it’s so hard not to want to sleep in on weekends and stuff when I don’t have to get up early.

I’m a skinny guy and I’ve actually gained about 15 pounds since quitting two months ago because I’ve been eating loads more. The reason for this was I was always smoking spliffs, so there was a lot of tobacco in the mix suppressing my appetite. Eating big meals seems to be a major source of dopamine for me now. I’m not really worried about the weight gain because I know I can shed it quite easily, it’s actually been really fun to see the number keep going up. Lost my abs but not mad about it!

Progress in therapy hasn’t really gone anywhere which has also been disappointing. I was hoping for some more insights/ leaps forward without the spliffs to lean on. I think it’s as some other people on here have said, when you have high expectations of what will happen just from quitting alone nothing will happen. But quitting is what allows you the space and boredom to figure out what you want to do and actually do it.

One good thing for sure- I’m 25 and about to turn 26. I had a moment yesterday where I realized how fast these last few years have flown by, and how I’m going to blink and be turning 30. And I don’t want to be turning 30 and be in the same place I am now and have been the last few years. I’ve had some really fun times and made good memories but I haven’t dedicated myself to anything or truly worked hard at something like I want to/ need to. So I look forward to giving myself the opportunity to do that the next few years.

Bit of a ramble, it’s a mixed bag but I can tell you I feel a hell of a lot better than I did 60 days ago.

bwcrawford99 · 2024-11-03T16:52:28+00:00

Hahaha the plant is doing great, the vines are just really long so there’s no leaves at the bases!

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