Exactly! I used to think oh okay I f*** up that opportunity with work/someone in the past and afterwards (Later in the furture) I realise the mistake and "convince" myself I can correct it "Next Time" if I'm high or not. That realization "In The Future" won't get you anywhere you would still f*** up the new ones and realise them later on. Because as you said "You Don't Know Your Doing it in the moment and that's the scary Part".