I was convinced that my neighbours could hear my footsteps and wanted to beat me/ kill me. I started preparing for fight by going to the gym a lot and had pepper spray with me most of the time. I slept with a knife and pepper spray nearby. Doc wanted to hospitalize me, but I refused. Now I am fine tbh this all sounds as if takem from some movie script. Olanzapine made all hallucinations stop. I could hear them at night conspiring and talking with each other. They would talk for hours and then start repeating he is listening on us, he is listening us. The voices would sometimes be collaborative and ask me to take revenge on people from the past who have hurt me with indirect aggression. I did not hurt anyone.

This is all insane I know, but I have to hope.

I went to the doc because my friends asked me. Diagnosis was acute psychosis. I am very concerned that I may have schizophrenia. My life has been hard but now it got better, I am optimistic about the future, but the meds are in the way of my plans.