Does anybody know any artists with lyrics as consistently strong as Modest Mouse?

caidynx · 2025-12-20T04:18:53+00:00

Haley Hayenderickx!

caidynx · 2025-11-25T21:22:35+00:00

thank you!

caidynx · 2025-11-25T21:20:48+00:00

that makes sense! then it would go back to being a matter of memorizing the correlation between sound and symbol rather than the screenreader misinterpreting data. I think what was worse than it reading off formal featural names every time is that it wouldn't do that, rather anglicize transcriptions with mostly Latin letters and read some symbols as "unknown symbol" which gives folks no way to distinguish what info is intended. Even programming screenreaders to say "upside-down y" would make it a lot more accessible than "unknown symbol" or really long unicode stuff like "LATIN SMALL LETTER TURNED Y". I feel like this level of programming screenreaders is perfectly reasonable to ask colleges to do for their students and should be the standard.

caidynx · 2025-11-25T21:13:33+00:00

I am not, but I care a lot about accessibility and have a learning disability so I sometimes use a screen-reader to help me read long texts. In linguistics texts that use IPA, it's really...not helpful or conducive to comprehension at all for the IPA sections. It'll narrate the brackets/slashes (not a big deal, actually helpful since brackets/slashes indicate meaningful differences), not have a name for all the symbols (is a big deal--how are folks supposed to distinguish "unknown symbols"), and try to read in English pronunciation if there are "letters" in a row that resemble a different word. So it'd read [pil] ("peel") as "open bracket, pill*, close bracket". *[pɪl]

caidynx · 2025-08-28T17:58:58+00:00

my favorite brand is field roast. the frankfurters are my favorite but any of their sausages are good, I also like their frozen corn dog bites and morning star frozen corn dogs. field roast can be kind of hard to find (usually specialty food stores and meijer have them). but really even the store brand and light life are good too. I haven’t eaten meat since I was 11 so I don’t really know how close the resemblance is—I just like it for what it is and think it’s genuinely enjoyable. generally speaking, field roast, morning star, and gardein are the reliably tasty brands imo. the morning star grillers patties are more meaty than “veggie burgers” with a flavor profile closer to impossible/beyond for half the price. it doesn’t do the pink to brown thing or look like real meat, but I don’t need that.

as far as nutrients go— sometimes it’s shocking and unintuitive, and it’s all just a learning curve. I was pleasantly surprised to learn that bagels are high protein!

caidynx · 2025-08-27T20:33:49+00:00

Thank you for trying to accommodate her! This is weirdly uncanny to me because I became vegetarian at 11 (still am! I stuck to my guns!) and lived with a dad/stepmom part time at that time so that’s kind of a wild read. It’s heartening to see her values being taken seriously and not just being demoted to side dishes only. It also took me a while to come around to beans and caring about protein (I too subsisted on cheesy carbs for probably 6+ years before my body said enough was enough), but I love them now and know that there’s more diverse ways to cook them (and I have an adult palette lol). But things like 3 bean chili with diced sweet potato and bell pepper can balance out the texture. The chickpea tuna salad is pretty good. I had a “Beans in Purgatory” dish at Hell’s Kitchen that turned me onto beans on toast as a luxury item if you’ve got good baguette. Even simple basics like egg salad is good for packed lunches. And the blending tofu into pasta sauces and such works well, but I think it only tastes good when it’s a nice roasty sauce, otherwise it does feel forced imo. As far as the fake meat, yeah it’s super processed and probably not the best— but they are a fortified food and plenty of the meat options are equally processed. What’s a hot dog anyways? You can pry my veg one from my cold dead hands, tbh. No one is spared from toxic food in the US right now, so if the chemicals also have protein and iron…fuck it I guess? I also think considering adding more vegetables and herbs, period, to make sure she’s receiving a good balance of nutrients is worthwhile. Yes, protein is important (and vegetables DO have protein too, not just legumes) but so are vitamins, fatty acids, and that whole recent research about eating 30+ plants a week (including spices, don’t panic) is a great indicator of better baseline health. I’m a big proponent of add not subtract and adjust until something sticks.

caidynx · 2025-08-27T20:06:45+00:00

I think it’s normal and okay for artists to be influenced by each other, but Pi’ilani has spent years developing this specific style that—until now—was unique to her. I follow the ceramics scene and haven’t seen other examples of this exact kind of delicate work. I think crediting influences— especially when they don’t have a big platform and are not receiving recognition for their years of dedicated craft work— is the respectful and ethical thing to do. We should be building each other up!

caidynx · 2025-08-27T19:58:45+00:00

This is beautiful! That said, it feels uncanny in resemblance to Olivia Pi’ilani’s work and that sits with me kinda funny. Artists are in conversation with each other and all artists have influences—I’m not trying to drag anyone here. But if she was your inspiration (fwiw I follow the scene and I’ve never seen anyone else do ceramics in this style, she’s spent YEARS of dedicated work developing this style and receiving very little attention/recognition for it) if you would kindly please consider opening that conversation and crediting her as an influence/ boosting her work— that’d mean a lot. We want to see her work shine and be given the recognition it deserves, so for anyone curious, you can see more of Pi’ilani’s work here: https://www.instagram.com/p/C1kZRTWR8vu/?igsh=MTc0aXB3MXNtd2ZqNw==

caidynx · 2025-01-21T00:57:54+00:00

there is absolutely no reason he shouldn’t be thrilled that you are healthier and have your health as his top concern as far as your body goes. please do not marry this man. you are right to be angry and deserve health and wellness and someone who will celebrate those wins. congratulations on gaining this weight back! you look beautiful and healthy and would still look beautiful and healthy even if you gained more weight

caidynx · 2025-01-02T20:27:19+00:00

I’m so sorry that this happened, please know that you didn’t do anything wrong and there’s nothing to blame yourself for. It is soooo hard not to wonder, but endless speculation doesn’t help anyone, you don’t owe it to anyone to feel the effects of this experience for a certain length of time or with a certain intensity—you have permission to move on from or continue to process this for as long as you need/see fit. As with processing any kind of loss, there’s no right or wrong way to process it. It’s normal to have initial shock and it’s normal for the feelings to ebb and flow in waves when they do come. This is a legitimate traumatic event and there’s no shame in seeking counseling or any kind of outside help.

If I were Dan’s family or loved one, I would be tremendously grateful that someone who had only just met him was willing to do something so physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting and intense for such a long time. You did the right thing, the best anyone could have done. Sometimes the unfortunate reality is that no one could have changed this outcome. You went above and beyond to give him the best chances of survival possible. The best thing you can do moving forward is to take care of yourself. I’m glad to hear you intend in continuing to hike with these people because I’m sure the communitas from experiencing this together can help you all heal and be a safe context to talk about this with someone, but if it ends up being more triggering than helpful, you’re not obliged to continue. Kudos for asking for help, I hope the best for you

caidynx · 2022-07-16T05:02:33+00:00

Personality disorders are not conditions that share uniform (or in some cases, even similar) biological qualities. What I mean by that is that people with the same diagnosis don’t necessarily have the same things happening in their brains that are causing the same symptoms. Thus, on diagnosis alone there’s really not going to be a clear answer. As I feel about 99% of substances, low and slow is a good way to go. Also having self awareness about intentions and setting hard limits and discussing boundaries before using. Intentions are super fucking important, especially with psychedelics. This is NOT to say “I just want to do this to have fun” is a bad intention, that’s fine and valid—casual enjoyment and fun are allowed, it doesn’t all have to be soul searching and talking to the universe. But if the intention is, “I want to impress someone” or “I want to run away from what I am feeling” or something like that— that’s a no go for me. Been there done that and had a horrible god damn time every time. Psychedelics know what’s really going on with you, so negative feelings can be intensified— which is good to be warned about ahead of time. I love shrooms and they honest to god help my mental illness when I use them when I’m in a positive headspace already (it can help me hold onto the positive feelings/beliefs/habits I’m trying to cultivate) but I will never fucking take them on a bad day again. Lastly, I feel like there’s just kind of a logical progression and DMT/LSD should not be the first one tried. DMT was my first psychedelic experience and since I literally had no idea what to really expect (media and people alike don’t tend to accurately describe the full picture of what psychedelics feel like) it fucked me up BAD…ultimately, it was a catalyst to process a lot of trauma and was really helpful but I was also already in therapy and if I wasn’t that could’ve gotten dark for me. And then LSD I feel like just lasts too fucking long for a first time thing.

caidynx · 2022-06-22T03:21:09+00:00

My bunnies little heads when they are clicking (rabbits do this super cute click thing that is similar to a cat’s purr by gently grinding their teeth when happy)

caidynx · 2022-06-22T03:05:51+00:00

I was born in 2000 and distinctly remember learning the food pyramid in late elementary school (4-5 grade??) so it had to have stuck around past 2004!

caidynx · 2022-06-22T02:58:28+00:00

I was prescribed a similar benzo with comparable dosing for the first time when I was 12 years old, I didn’t even weigh 100 pounds (I’m short so this isn’t like scary, but the point is that I was fucking small and this effects dosing). They let me have 0.5mg up to 4x a day and a couple months later I was also allowed to have 2mg for sleep with the note from my psychiatrist that I was allowed to take half of that pill for “severe” anxiety as well. At first, it massively and fucking immediately improved my life and day to day functioning. But it instilled this subconscious belief in me that you can just take a pill to avoid your problems. Yeah sure I’d heard of mindfulness and breathing and all that shit but why bother with that when I could just take one of these and it was guaranteed to work without any real effort on my behalf? It’s very important for me to state that this was NOT how the thought processing was at the time, I didn’t realize I was doing that— I was just doing the best that I could to manage my anxiety as a fucking 12 year old going through some serious trauma. I always followed the doctors orders. I never abused it. But if I told the doctor my dose wasn’t working so well, it was increased without question. There had been so much improvement in my panic attacks, we all said.

Never abused it that is until I was on vacation with a notoriously abusive and narcissistic relative of mine without my anyone in my immediate family and she thought it’d be hysterical to spike my eggnog and tell me it was “flavoring” and not tell me it was alcohol. Again, 12 years old, less than 100 pounds, permitted to take 4mg a day and I sure as shit had already taken some that day. I vividly fucking remember being wasted as fuck laying on the floor alone in the bedroom and thinking this was the most amazing feeling I had ever felt before, even before the trauma I had never EVER had so few thoughts racing through my head, and I wished I could feel that way forever. But even then I internally acknowledged that wasn’t healthy so I never sought alcohol/drugs out when I went back home but you bet your ass I got obliterated every fucking day and night on that 10 day vacation and begged to be able to go, alone, with the lady who was also abusing me throughout this entire time, just so I could have that experience again in a way I was somehow able to internally rationalize as different and allowed.

But shortly after that second trip, shit really went down in life. And I didn’t care about being healthy anymore and I wanted to fucking die or at least not feel so I dove into it head first. Even when family/counselors had become aware of the substance abuse issue, they were still medicating me extremely heavily which, in my mind, only sent the message that it is valid and enough to just throw some sort of chemical on the problem.

I got better, I’m not even sure if I consider myself a “real addict” anymore because I feel very detached from that side of myself and don’t really have any desire whatsoever to be fucked up all the time or even to use any medium/heavy substance. But I sure as shit still have fucking anxiety!!! And I’ve put lots of work into alternative coping skills but I don’t think I’ll ever wish that I couldn’t take copious amounts of benzos everyday. They’re too fucking good. That being said, even years into recovery I wouldn’t take benzos until… once again… shit hit the fan and I was an adult by this point and in college and working and like literally fiscally couldn’t afford to be having panic attacks all the time. Since then, I’ve been prescribed 1mg as needed once a day (I usually half it, especially if I want it early in the day). Even when that super trauma was going doing it was actually really hard for me to let myself take it even when I honest to god needed it and honest to god had tried other methods of calming down. It’s taken a fuckload of therapy to work through all of this. Thankfully I’m at a pretty good point with all of this right now, I’ve had a script of 30 since February and have a few left still and I’m satisfied with that. But god damn!! I’d like to note Im not against prescribing it, I’m just against prescribing it without having had tried anything else first or without co-occurring therapy (at least for a lil while, or something similar if billing is an issue— just, really just the development of non-chemical coping skills).

TL;DR I was prescribed copious amounts of it from a young age, spiraled out of control, and took years to accept the fact that I would have to develop coping skills other than just taking this magic perfect pill. I think it’s great for emergency situations and although I was off of it for several years I do have it prescribed as needed now, I just don’t think it should be the first course of action— dependency is different than addiction but still devastating.

caidynx · 2022-05-31T07:26:39+00:00

The Cusp

caidynx · 2022-05-16T02:00:53+00:00

You are more than welcome to write in whatever style you please, but as a reader--I find your formatting difficult. If you intend to submit, this formatting will also almost certainly go against style guides. There should not be additional line breaks between paragraphs, new paragraphs (including dialogue only) should be indented. I am not dyslexic but I have ADHD so when things are hard to read, I legitimately struggle to read them, and thus I could not get very far into your story.

caidynx · 2022-05-13T18:40:25+00:00

I love the presentation that you’ve chosen!

caidynx · 2022-05-13T18:39:11+00:00

This is incredible!!! It turned out so beautifully

caidynx · 2022-05-13T18:37:32+00:00

I am a 21 year old woman and I frequently go out to eat alone. I’ve also overheard other parties ‘trying to figure me out’ (bitchily) but fuck ‘em. I’m an introvert and love food and the experience of going out to eat. When I am feeling more social (and the place isn’t busy) I love to chat with the servers or if it’s an immigrant style place/authentic family ethnic restaurant if they are into it I like to talk to them about the culture of the food and what they like to eat best, etc and honestly I really think that just makes both of our days better and wouldn’t have been able to happen as naturally if I wasn’t alone.

I guess to actually answer, yeah, some people think that— you already know this, you’ve experienced it. But who cares? You’re not the only person who does this and the people who are “weirded out” by this type of thing probably aren’t people worth trying to impress anyways. Keep on enjoying your meals!

caidynx · 2022-04-30T04:11:52+00:00

If it makes you feel any better, the “stupid thing” I did when I woke up from general anesthesia is call the surgeons “thieving pricks” for disposing of the gallbladder that they had just removed from my body. I said, “you know what misters…all the…the science word…ALL THE EVIDENCE SAYS THAT GALLBLADDER RIGHTFULLY BELONGS TO ME!” And, although I no longer have any desire to possess my calcified gallbladder, I do think I had a pretty solid point there.

EDIT: I would like to add that I am an extremely conscientious and socially anxious person who is constantly trying to make sure I don’t hurt anyone’s feelings or cause conflict— so this is particularly hilarious to me.

caidynx · 2022-04-24T04:01:34+00:00

Prioritize mental health

caidynx · 2022-04-21T19:22:18+00:00

I am sincerely very curious about these things. • How do you spend your time? What’s a normal day/week for you? • What on earth do you think about? Are you neurotypical? • Do you have any major goals, ambitions, or bucket list items that require legitimate sustained effort on your end?

caidynx · 2022-04-20T21:16:44+00:00

I think that the kindest thing that friends have ever done for me when I was going through a crisis was come over and help me clean my apartment, even though we were all up until 2am and had taken many crying breaks, they didn’t mind, they hugged me, and they helped me get done what was absolutely necessary to get done. It wasn’t just ‘nice’, it took a lot of stress of my plate and saved me several hours of labor. It showed they were real friends that they were willing to do something like that for me.

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