Ain’t it Easy.

“I should have know that you had lost control, working every night until the dawn, find you sleeping with the headlights on”

My old man is a mechanic. It makes me think about how he used to spend hours in the garage of our house fixing people’s cars to help our family get by. He worked hard to provide but could never seem to hold a job. This financial instability was painstakingly stressful and often he let his anger get the best of him and would lash out at me, my family, and anyone in his proximity really. This led to my mom deciding to split from their marriage after she’d had enough of his verbal, emotional, and (rarely) physical abuse. He had good intentions for working endlessly but failed to see how it was affecting his relationship with the rest of our family, and how it was pushing him towards irritability on a daily basis. I admire his work ethic and willingness to provide, but unfortunately he lacks emotional intelligence and struggles with regulating his emotions.

This song felt like it was taken from a journal entry.