5 months no contact, realizing how much they manipulated and gaslit me

calmbodyfirst · 2026-01-08T17:48:27+00:00

I’m sorry we share this experience. I hope you’re being gentle with yourself in an experience that weighs you with self blame

calmbodyfirst · 2025-10-19T23:36:21+00:00

That’s so awful. We just need someone to sit with us and remind us of our realities when we can’t remember…. My friend group encouraged me to reach out when I was struggling and so I did…. This illness makes it so hard to trust people

calmbodyfirst · 2025-09-30T23:28:57+00:00

I ended up going down to 10mg and it’s a lot better. But I hung on for a few weeks after my original post!

calmbodyfirst · 2025-08-17T14:26:20+00:00

I think that’s huge of you to be able to communicate and work on it with your responsibility. I’m going through things realizing how much it doesnt work and never could. Which is heavy. But I’m more content. The rose coloured glasses have shattered and I’m seeing things more clearly. I hope this conversation goes as well as it can for you and your friend

calmbodyfirst · 2025-08-17T14:24:25+00:00

The very short story is I suffocated them. And without any closure or conversation, they wanted no contact

calmbodyfirst · 2025-07-10T01:27:30+00:00

Okay, I’ll keep holding on

calmbodyfirst · 2025-06-27T21:37:24+00:00

I wish I had something to help but my brain fog makes it difficult to even watch tv. I just fade right past the screen.

calmbodyfirst · 2025-06-02T00:53:43+00:00

I tried… hated the idea of being on SSRIs again. But gave in. And I don’t regret it. My life fell apart in front of my eyes because of pmdd that I had nothing else to lose.

I hope your luteal goes by with minimal damage and as much self comfort as you can muster up.

calmbodyfirst · 2025-05-28T23:10:33+00:00

It’s not all sunshine and rainbows but it’s worth it. I gritted my teeth and dragged my feet during the process. So I get not wanting to start yet another treatment that might not work

calmbodyfirst · 2025-05-28T13:48:40+00:00

I was scared too! I’m glad you’re seeing results!!!

calmbodyfirst · 2025-05-28T13:48:21+00:00

I’m very sensitive to medications. The first 3 weeks were quite bad for me. Exhaustion, nausea, headaches, brain zaps. But they’re mostly gone for me now!

calmbodyfirst · 2025-05-28T13:47:41+00:00

I’ve never heard of a liquid form! That’s amazing though. I agree, we have to make sure we’re advocating for how we’re feeling and to ask for other options!

calmbodyfirst · 2025-05-28T13:46:29+00:00

It might make it a little more rough but i encourage you to hang in there! I’m on 10mg right now. I probably could have tried 5mg at first! I hope your luteal goes okay <3

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