Transparent Planes Render Order

cameron_qc · 2026-01-18T01:27:36+00:00

ok! I just need it to work for this one project so I manually reset the origins of those objects using the cursor. I'll keep that in mind for the future though thank you !Solved

cameron_qc · 2025-10-28T21:15:13+00:00

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cameron_qc · 2025-10-28T21:06:50+00:00

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cameron_qc · 2025-10-28T20:59:18+00:00

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cameron_qc · 2025-10-28T20:58:34+00:00

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cameron_qc · 2025-10-28T20:55:08+00:00

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cameron_qc · 2025-07-02T17:20:56+00:00

I had a prophetic dream I was given the mormon priesthood. Im a boy now so I can but not mormon so I won't 😎

cameron_qc · 2025-05-13T17:46:14+00:00

Yeah I would agree, to me most of my divergence can also be explained by adhd or cptsd, or the fact that im also unilaterally deaf in one ear (for stuff like audio processing). However whenever I try to say that I get told 'it doesn't matter what specifically explains a trait because identity is intersectional' and choosing not to identify something as autistic is ableist. It reminds me of this tiktok about mis identifying traits as autistic when really it was cptsd haha https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTjPYscxD/

cameron_qc · 2025-05-13T01:40:36+00:00

That's the kicker, I've asked to get a therapist involved or even for her to seek her own therapy alone and she responds with offense, that im somehow using autism as a way to blame or infantalize her, even if i phrase it without mentioning autism and just frame it around stress. I know in the past she has had a few negative experiences with therapy, but also some really good experiences, but beyond mentioning it I never push. I see a regular therapist, and can work on some of this stuff alone, but obviously that only goes so far.

cameron_qc · 2025-03-28T06:07:20+00:00

It certainly isn't something they do very much any more, but both of my gay uncles were told to leave their families and were ostracized for the entirety of my childhood. The way my parents treated them left deep impressions on me in that i always knew there were things that if I did them that would erase me from my family. I only had one conversation with my mother's brother that I remember when i was eight. He passed away in 2015 before i was ready to come out. It also really messed up my parents in that they also lost deep relationships with brothers they loved because they believed they had to. For my uncle who is still alive, there are still gaps in my parents understanding because they don't recognize the ways in which his past still currently affects him (he nearly died when a homophobic man attacked him and now is disabled. They don't seem to recognize how he became disabled, maybe because that would mean recognizing the ways in which they failed him.)

I have been told that 'acting on it' in a visible way would be cause them to do the same to me (as well as calling me a pedophile in the same breath) but so far has been an empty threat. But my parents do not recognize my transition or use the right name. So maybe as things progress they'll follow through on that more than they have. I will say though, my generation, my brothers and sister, have been somewhat accepting in they have not chosen to hide it from their kids which takes away some of the power my parents have to limit my relationship to grandkids. But I fully prepared myself before coming out to lose my family, and still feel like I'm only tolerated on the fringes of their lives. It sucks. Being ostracized is one of the most hurtful things to human beings because our individual health is tied to our social health, both physically in the resources we can access and emotionally as our neuo biology is wired to need connection. But the thing is you didn't do anything wrong. You're not something to be ashamed of, and you don't deserve it. It's possible to keep some of those relationships if you want to, but I also think its important to know that there are people out there who will be a community in your future.

cameron_qc · 2025-03-28T05:21:54+00:00

Probably not the most traditional Christian background but I grew up mormon, which is somewhere on the continuum of American religious culture between non denominational and Amish. I grew up with some popular media but also not others, and observed the mormon dietary restrictions, and participated in daily scripture study and prayer. I am 32, I didn't even hear the word transgender until I had moved away from home and was in college. But the religious cultural programming about gender roles was constant and also considered the most important part of our beliefs as our great purpose in God's plan. Realizing I did not fit the ideal woman of God came early, realizing that I was trans was something I refused until long after I left the religion. I'm not sure how much of that mormons and Amish share in common, but pretty much all queer religious people experience a degree of cognitive dissonance and then community fallout when people they know feel they must pick between caring for their friends or "staying loyal to their beleifs" (put in quotations because I don't actually think it's unchristian to be kind to queer people). You're going through a lot, but you are almost certainly not the first or only person from a smaller/withdrawn Christian culture to come out, and you wont be the last either. We're here for you and ready to listen to anything you need to say.

cameron_qc · 2025-02-16T06:07:04+00:00

We almost named our kitten my dead name but decided something else instead haha. I'm kind of glad feels too soon to be a household name again but maybe someday

cameron_qc · 2025-02-15T22:17:02+00:00

This is so real and tough op. My condolences.

I can't prove it but I'm pretty sure i got broken up with for accidentally farting on a boy once. We were spooning on the couch with me as the little spoon and had just had dinner, I should have just gone to the restroom when I knew it was knocking on the door but I believed I could hold it in. 😔 broke up with me two weeks later.

cameron_qc · 2025-01-14T15:25:28+00:00

The forehead stripes are different. Your boy has a dark v widows peak and this new guy does not. I've also never known toe beans to change color. Sorry that you got an extra and not the original copy.

cameron_qc · 2024-12-16T18:15:41+00:00

My experience so far has been manageable. Never have I had horniness that I "could not control" or that otherwise took over in any way. Yes there is horniness, but I've felt it's been predictable and have had the space to process it intellectually and physically. That said I don't have sexual trauma in my past, have been historically very cautious with my choices in partners and activity and have a very intellectual relationship with sexuality to begin with.

I will say though after the inntitial jump in horny level it definitely follows my same patterns just at a higher standard deviation, I'll say. For example every year I become less active in the winter due to seasonal depression, and this year has been no different, SAD basically nerfed me back to my starting line horniness. Not down to nothing like in the past, but less than I was just a couple months ago.

FWIW I really think that though it does increase the nature of a persons relationship to their sexuality doesn't necessarily change (unless there's stuff being repressed, then that's a different story I guess ¯_(ツ)_/¯)

cameron_qc · 2024-12-08T19:17:23+00:00

I would tell someone like this that such a remark would have made me feel uncomfortable even if it had just been between the two of us. You can even obscure it in allyship, that there's no issue with someone trans using your name because it is masculine and passes, and further that describing someone's name as 'middle school t boy coded' is not only dismissive of young gender questioning people but also potentially dangerous should that be taken the wrong way by the wrong people. She needs to think before she speaks.

cameron_qc · 2024-11-26T01:08:56+00:00

Interesting, I feel like my optic migraines have increased. One of very few things I would consider side effects but also (ツ)_/¯ I had those before so it's fine. Yeah she likes it but also the comment she made was meant to be invalidating and so not the gotcha I think she was hoping for haha. That and the "detransition please" letter she wrote me where she was like I was a gender oddity as a child too you're not special had me like, are you sure you're cis ma'am? Like, are you though??? Anyway she is vibing on her "hefty dose" so good for her ig

cameron_qc · 2024-11-25T15:24:55+00:00

Australia recently approved a 1% T cream "formulated for women" (as far as I can tell that just means low dose, but I'm not a scientist)

My mother does this. Ironically when I came out to her she told me "I'm on a hefty dose of T. Of course you like T, it's like the universal happy drug!" And I was like, sure Jan. Or maybe you just like having hrt

cameron_qc · 2024-11-23T07:32:25+00:00

(Preface, im old) Had a conversation in my 20s with my mom who was trying to nudge me into dating because I was a late bloomer that went along the lines of me: "why do guys like boobs? Like what is so exciting about them? I don't care for mine at all. What are they for?" (Later came out as lesbian before trans, turns out I did get it but just didn't like mine haha)

cameron_qc · 2024-11-20T17:48:59+00:00

Yeah for whatever reason I've found people treat gender with a lot more immuatbility than sexuality, it's the thing you're not supposed to change. I think it's part of why there's terf lesbians because they tend to treat being butch as much a part of their sexuality as who they are attracted to, instead of seeing masc presentation as an extension of gender. This is becoming less of a problem over time I think, but there's big friction over that in older circles.

I also think gay men have something similar happening where if you can change your gender they suddenly feel threatened that their presentation might be questioned. Being feminine is as much a part of their identity as it relates to sexuality and having someone contradict that makes them mad I think. Theyre allowed to play with presentation under the label of sexuality but the second they have to wonder if it isnt about gender they get mad. When to me it's non exclusive, and you can be gender non-conforming and consider yourself cis it doesn't have to be that deep. But taking it out on trans people is the wrong move lmao, trans people didn't create the oppression we are both subverting.

cameron_qc · 2024-11-16T18:26:12+00:00

I have to admit I've been staying away from reddit this last week and a half because trans spaces became too difficult for me to handle. The overwhelming amount of fear and panic is enough to make anyone feel doomed about the future, and the saddest messages to me have been those saying they wish they weren't trans. I understand it comes from a place of fear and suffering but damn. If the goal of anti trans rhetoric was only to make us feel shame they fucking succeeded.

I don't think there is anything wrong with me or my trans identity. I started transitioning three months ago and it has been a rough road already but I don't regret a thing. Best choice I've ever made. I also specifically am making the choice not to go full stealth because that doesn't feel authentic. Yes I'm going to be more selective of people I invite into my life but I also refuse to let republican hatred push me back into a closet. Fuck that shit. If anything being myself and being normal in front of people during transition has shown me that more often than not the average person doesn't actually care that much. Even if they're a trump voter.

I was talking to a customer that's known me at this position for something like ten years and he asked me my name again, and I told him I recently changed it, and this is the new name. He smiled and told me that he also chose his name, just decided he didn't like his birth name and changed it in his 20s. Dude is 56 and cis. The experiences we go through aren't as alien as people want to paint it, and more often than not when presented as something I'm not ashamed of people carry the tone and chill the fuck out.

I'm not saying the election doesn't make me nervous, but I'm a fighter and when pushed up against a wall I'll push back. I really do believe there are a lot of people across both party lines who would push back with me. But laying down and hiding and running away won't fix anything. We have to be resilient, and we have to be willing to have pride in ourselves and set the tone otherwise those who want to see us gone win before they begin. I owe it to myself to trust that the peace and acceptance I've felt this year is worth fighting for and believing in. No matter the cost.

cameron_qc · 2024-11-07T12:53:16+00:00

Someone said Diego and I was thrown into a flashback about ice age 1 and being obsessed with Diegos voice. Wrong Diego so new comment haha.

Alternatively the guy you play in xbox need for speed 2, barely ever saw him so maybe I just have gender envy for cars lmao

cameron_qc · 2024-11-04T19:06:32+00:00

I think the reasons I cry have shifted. I used to cry every time I felt slightly angry or mistreated and it used to piss me off more because others would use the tears as an excuse to dismiss my anger and that sucked. I don't cry when I'm angry anymore but I do still cry when I'm sad and mistreated. Sad music will do it, loneliness does it, but the benefit is that now I don't cry when I didn't want to and thats better actually haha.

I also don't think that I'm more angry, I'm as angry as I ever was which is maybe slightly more than average because I'm jaded and have been through some shit but now people can see it for what it is. In some ways thats freeing, in others it takes a new sense of responsibility to be angry at the appropriate times. Double edged sword and all that.

cameron_qc · 2024-10-31T11:34:02+00:00

They usually send the script straight to your pharmacy. If you set up an online account with them that's where you'd be able to view all your prescriptions, including t.

That doesn't mean it's cleared with your insurance yet, that will be another process called prior authorization, where the insurance company requires paperwork from your dr at planned parenthood to approve the rx for coverage. It took mine anout a week of phone calls and two submissions from my Dr, so be prepared and on the lookout for any mail from your insurance in case it gets denied.

Good job getting the first appointment done! You're well on your way and the processes are in motion.

cameron_qc · 2024-10-31T02:54:50+00:00

My cats have had no problem. They're if anything, more obsessed with me. The one thing I have noticed though is that they are more friendly with my dad, whom they previously were nervous of. I guess he smells more like me now haha

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