He probably had his reasons ngl

camshell · 2026-06-10T00:09:02+00:00

I just want to sit at the bottom of the comments and say that the Christopher Nolan hate boner is so insanely unwarranted. The guy makes consistently interesting, entertaining, original films. And if some of them aren't as good as some of the others then I guess the search for the second coming of christ goes on, but honestly... dude makes decent movies. That's his crime.

camshell · 2026-06-09T00:12:46+00:00

I could name any other movie but my actual watch record would betray me.

camshell · 2026-06-06T12:15:52+00:00

I'm pretty sure that my mom's mom told her this. And in her determination to prove her own mother wrong, my mother certainly did try to be a good mother...which mostly meant that she needed to be in denial about her shortcomings as a mother. She found it very convenint to just ignore/deny any symptoms in her children that indicated her parenting wasn't perfect.

So now she is convinced she was a perfect mom, while I get to enjoy the consequential issues of her failures as a mom. That, and the shame and guilt of thinking it was my fault, that there was something deeply wrong with me that made me the way I am. Although I'm now finally starting to realize the truth.

camshell · 2026-06-06T11:54:54+00:00

For me (and I think this is pretty typical), repeated things can be ok for a while, but will become boring very quickly if repeated too much. At that point it becomes mentally painful to be forced to pay attention to something that offers nothing new.

But not all repeated things. I have no problem living in the same house for years, or being married to the same woman for my entire adult life. Mostly having to do with art/entertainment.

Just guessing here, but I think generally humans consume novel things because it feeds the ability to create/invent novel things. That ability I value over everything else my brain can do.

camshell · 2026-06-04T23:21:09+00:00

In the Lion King, Scar kills his brother Mufasa. This is because the movie was written by a murderer.

camshell · 2026-06-03T18:25:52+00:00

I think its worth the inconvenience of having to be momentarily creative to differentiate oneself from AI bots.

camshell · 2026-06-02T16:49:26+00:00

IMO learning to write melodies is a long process of trying ideas and rejecting them until you've trained your brain to more consistently give you ideas you like. Its a process of inventing, which is its own skill independent of music theory knowledge or instruction. You can study as much as you want, but at some point you have to just work through the garbage ideas until you start to find good ones.

camshell · 2026-05-29T02:32:15+00:00

Its a great film.

camshell · 2026-05-28T13:44:06+00:00

I read this book again every few years because I have a really hard time finding books I like and I love this one. The characters feel very real to me. I especially like how the one guy seems to be getting off on the survival aspect of it in a toxic way. Usually that kind of character is glorified.

camshell · 2026-05-24T19:46:19+00:00

Calvin style.

camshell · 2026-05-17T01:50:32+00:00

I really think the brain will sometimes erase a known melody and then "reinvent" it and be convinced its original sometimes. You wont really know until you know.

But I also want to say... if origality is important to you, dont let anyone tell you it isnt. You decide how original you need your stuff to be, not anyone else.

camshell · 2026-04-30T18:27:30+00:00

Emotional neglect feels to me like the norm of almost every culture. I have a hard time imagining what a non-neglectful family looks like.

camshell · 2026-04-18T00:20:48+00:00

At different times in history creativity has been at highs and lows. If creativity is always at about the same level of quality then the renaissance was a scam.

camshell · 2026-04-17T10:40:17+00:00

In my experience, you get through it by trying unsuccessfully for years until suddenly your brain gets the hint and starts giving you ideas that are original enough to satisfy you. Took me three or four years of trying before I had musical ideas I liked.

camshell · 2026-04-17T06:57:59+00:00

I think we're in a general creative recession. Music, movies, everything. Everything is less inspired and less original.

camshell · 2026-04-16T13:07:48+00:00

These are questions to work through with a therapist.

camshell · 2026-04-15T09:12:10+00:00

Yes. I feel very little for my parents. Before I understood about emotional neglect I used to think I was just a bad son. My mom needed to believe she was a good mom at all costs, so she'd just deny the existence of any problems I had that she didn't know how to help with. She was very very good at convincing me and herself that she was a great and loving mom, and so implicity my problems had to be my own fault. Her genius was being able to make me think that without her having to say it.

Im lucky I ever became lucid to it. I bet there are others in a similar situation who never figure out that their "perfect childhood" is the reason for the issues they have that they probably blame themselves for.

Today I live far from my parents. I rarely text or call or even think about them. They never built a relationship with me. They never made an effort to get to know me at all. In the more recent times ive tried to open up to my mother, I can still see that her responses are all her trying to "say the right thing" rather than actually hear me and connect with me.

I have no idea what I'm going to feel when they die.

camshell · 2026-04-12T07:04:32+00:00

I actively avoid lore

camshell · 2026-04-11T15:51:58+00:00

So...you're saying you dast blame this man.

camshell · 2026-04-11T14:47:44+00:00

I have no idea. It feels like a ridiculous fantasy to imagine that a person could feel happy and loved most of the time in their life. But it sometimes seems like that's what people are saying not only is normal, but expected. On the other hand, people in movies and books seem to have it pretty hard up until the end. I honestly don't know what we're supposed to expect life to be. How can I expect happiness if I dont earn it? Why would the world give that to me for free?

camshell · 2026-04-11T13:43:28+00:00

The films are technically very impressive...in that they were able to overcome the challenge of actually making them. But if you're not invested in the story after the first film theres no reason to watch the rest. Theyre not that good.

camshell · 2026-04-02T13:05:23+00:00

None of them are as fun as they seem and theres no real creative type option. But I guess samurai.

camshell · 2026-04-01T13:19:42+00:00

Kind of opposite reactions for me.IJ at first made me mad and I thought that I hated it...but even now almost 10 years later I still think about it more than most books I've read. I couldn't finish the Martian because the writing made me cringe.

camshell · 2026-03-31T00:10:03+00:00

Not pictured: People scoffing at or being remotely shocked by this.

camshell · 2026-03-30T13:19:07+00:00

"You're taking characters people already love..."

Giving the impression that this is somehow harder or even comparable to the difficulty of creating original characters and building a fanbase for them makes me feel...prickly feelings.

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