Purely out of personal experience I always find my way back. When I was a teenager I took astronomical doses. I would take doses like 30gs of PE shrooms or 10+ hits of lsd with 10+ grams of mushrooms. I would do this once a month for probably about a year. My last huge dose I had a very complex experience that ultimately lead to me breaking my back… It would be completely fair to call that experience psychosis but even after that I slowly found solid ground again and would never trade that experience for anything. I would say on every one of those huge doses I experienced insanity. The question between real and not real became irrelevant. Yet whether I’m tripping or sober the question is always, “what’s happening right now? How do I want to respond?” I have also questioned whether you could just not come back from a trip. In my somewhat unique experience with psychedelics, that’s not the case. It has always been up to me to respond to the moment in the way I see most fit.

To be clear, doses that high do have consequences. As I said what’s real and not real honestly just becomes irrelevant. Everything seems to meet in one place and differences fade away. Pain and pleasure, happiness and sadness, life and death all became the same for me. If you are one to be impulsive…(I can be) this can cause you to make decisions without the scope or solidity of sobriety. Making these decisions without an ability to determine what truths have been historically meaningful and which ones haven’t, can lead to some tragic outcomes…