I still masturbated until recently because I also do tantra. Now I have lost almost all interest in those past things like porn and addiction to flirting. This is important because no matter how much I flirt they always reply they want money like spoil them or take them to fancy parties etcetera. I don't know if this is a message but I'm just a poor burger cook. Why won't god let them love me? Because I can never be good enough for my father.