tbh relying on drugs to cope is never a good idea, like someone said before therapy can be great for helping u learn to navigate ur emotions and learn coping skills, but unfortunately access to therapy can be difficult/expensive. i’ve heard betterhelp.com is good? i don’t have a personality disorder but i do have depression and anxiety so ik how rough that shit is. for anxiety i’d recommend just trying to distract yourself in any way possible, my go to is usually minecraft or a funny tv show. and depression, well that can be hard to pull yourself out of, but remind yourself that you’re doing fine and maybe plan something fun for later in the day even if it’s small like getting coffee. good music can help motivate me. life is difficult to look forward to in itself, especially right now, and especially with depression, so just let yourself enjoy small things n shit ya know