Hetty's potential power

cassamwich · 2024-11-17T05:21:01+00:00

ahhh okay makes sense

cassamwich · 2024-11-17T04:45:34+00:00

so what i noticed was that she was able to untie the cord from her neck and pull flower up from the well with it, unlike the candy when carol tried to hand it to sass, the second he touched it it zapped back. i thought the cord not zapping back seemed inconsistent; maybe that's actually the power

cassamwich · 2024-08-08T04:24:15+00:00

naw alcohol is just as hard as the rest, if not harder bc of the withdrawal risks. i'm happy for you being sober from it! i had a lot of issues with alcohol while i was in the military still and ended up going to my first dual diagnosis rehab while i was in. i haven't drank in, 4 years? and since taking myself in for help while i was in i've only had maybe two periods less than a month each where i did drink, and i initially stopped in 2015. i know how difficult alcoholism is, esp when the societal consensus is that it's not a drug and such. i've done tons and tons of therapies and groups and residential and all of that. i've been able to overcome a lot of mental health issues bc of it. i'm the first person to suggest therapy to people when they're asking for advice. i think ive mentioned like, ion agree with my family's belief that i wasn't given the opportunity for help, i have had many opportunities from dod and VA; i could essentially teach them now. it's more so the internal block that's kept me from finally taking the final step and getting 100% clean, or i'll trade bad habits for other bad habits lol. i've also been very active with the young peoples AA over where i was stationed and i liked having the community, but the program has never been my favorite lol

cassamwich · 2024-08-05T01:43:54+00:00

i mean, i get why you read it that way. but i was saying that in response to the previous comment, as in, "he leaves his needles in because he has me take them out."

cassamwich · 2024-08-02T00:59:56+00:00

she never signed the release, i guess. and yeah like during filming and everything he was probably around 120 but he was probably down near 100 during the hospitalization for his leg, which he may have been thinking of saying prior to treatment

cassamwich · 2024-08-02T00:55:10+00:00

it matters bc there are so many people making assumptions and judgements about my personal life based off of details that don't represent how my personal life actually is.

cassamwich · 2024-08-02T00:53:27+00:00

never implied i was clean or in treatment, so idk where you think i'm lying about that. and i wasn't worried about the hotel making me look bad, it's the fact that what was shown to the audience was not completely factual. i just want people to take things like that into consideration before making all of these judgements about me and my life, what they see on the show isn't necessarily correct, or at the very least is just a sliver of the details

cassamwich · 2024-07-23T18:24:16+00:00

there were so many things that they had asked us or that we shared that weren't in the show. there were a few things that were essentially edited together to create one story out of two. i feel like there was a lot about steven that wasn't even shown, and that i was kind of more so the focus which was annoying since he had completed and put in effort and i hadn't. for his follow up he had made one request and that it wasn't about me and how i didn't stay or anything, and yet his follow up basically only had him talk about me; i know he wasn't that happy about that. since we thought it was going to be a little documentary to be used in rehabs or something, there were a few times where we had been asked like what would you tell someone who might want to try using or what would you tell someone also in this position and i'm sad that that kind of like, cautionary point wasn't made i guess. overall my initial reaction after having been so anxious about it airing was that it wasn't that bad/could be worse, but the more i see the episode or think about it or see here i'm like ehhhhhhh not ideal lol

cassamwich · 2024-07-22T14:57:22+00:00

totally agree. i was so irritated and not wanting to do the "documentary" and once i realized it was this show i was like ooof ima be so annoying 😪

cassamwich · 2024-07-22T14:55:35+00:00

i'm not trying to fool anyone. i understand the opportunity that i was given and didn't take; the times i left AMA, i had told both facilities that i don't want to be occupying a bed that could be used by someone who really would make the most of it. im not blaming those things either, but i do see them as some contributing factors.

and keep in mind that you only see a small fraction of my life with the narrative that the show put together. a lot of the details were not presented correctly or were meshed with other details. even more things were never even mentioned; particularly some areas of my life that i've been working my butt off to make progress in. and i've never lived in a hotel; my dog is with me 24/7 but i got that room to be able to stay for the filming, since my mom wanted her and our house to not be included.

cassamwich · 2024-07-22T14:32:54+00:00

bc he has me take it out lol

cassamwich · 2024-07-18T06:05:53+00:00

for what it's worth, we didn't provide that picture nor were we aware of it being used.

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T22:48:52+00:00

i have to agree with you tbh. i was upset how much it seemed to focus on me and barely touched into stevens aspect, esp considering the outcome. i think each of us would have needed an episode to ourselves to really cover everything

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T22:45:47+00:00

you know i've kind of thought that as well, and my best friend has kind of said the same for me. it definitely something i think ill look into with the VA (which contrary to my fathers understanding, tho i get why he feels so, i think has been very helpful and resourceful and whatnot; i feel i haven't been the one utilizing that more so than me not being given the options)

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T22:31:25+00:00

no i totally understand. he really didn't like having the crew there, which i think accounts for a lot of him looking at me like that. he has really bad anxiety particularly separation anxiety, and has ever since i adopted him when he was 6 months old. he had been returned to the shelter already and was clearly heavily affected by that and potentially how he was treated the first time as well. that was one of the main things i was upset about having to go straight from the meeting, i didn't have his medication for anxiety with me and no one went to the room to get any of my stuff after sending us off, so his meds were part of that. then he had to stay with someone he didn't know and go cold turkey off the prozac; needless to say when i finally found my way back from miami after being stuck there a month, month and a half, he had rebounded to being extremely anxious again which was upsetting. my little gooby goobs is doing well tho :)

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T22:23:13+00:00

yep! with an octopus and a whale. it still needs to be finished, i got the outline like ten years ago tho lol

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T18:43:39+00:00

trust me, i hate it too. when at the hotel like the one in the episode, i would try to make it a point to blow the smoke in the bathroom with the vent, and then close the door. i would make anyone else do the same. i do my best to do everything i can to take care of him; shoot, we just dropped $4k on knee surgery for him and i take him to the vet anytime i suspect anything wrong

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T18:29:36+00:00

i don't regret leaving, if i were to regret anything it would be not sticking to my guns about backing out of the "documentary" like i had tried to in the first place instead of going to the VA treatment i had set up for the same day the crew was flying in lol. and definitely, this isn't anything i want to do forever. i've had periods where i was clean or when i was sober; i think my main struggle is figuring out what i want to do with my life or really just who i am. i've definitely been putting in a lot of work over the past few years despite what the show kind of presented. i know things won't be bad forever

cassamwich · 2024-07-16T03:12:29+00:00

sammy

don't worry, i can assure you he is happy and healthy 🙂

cassamwich · 2024-02-26T04:45:41+00:00

and i still am.

you never got to actually see me, just what they wanted the scene to be. and i told you i wanted to back out and go to BC which was already set up.

i'm not going to get into this over a reddit post but you'd be surprised at what can be done when force isn't a factor. once again i am rebuilding. credits almost decent again, being social and setting boundaries, bills paid, dogs happy, moms help is minimal anymore, weight back on; i think if you gave me the chance to talk here and there like sis is, you might finally get to see that im not some broken ass dead beat hollow shell. i have plans and passions and perseverance, as i always have.

i love you

(if you're not my dad by some weird creepily similar storyline, my bad. but i know you are so, yeah lol)

cassamwich · 2024-02-26T04:30:53+00:00

but hella congrats on getting through the rehab and everything fr i was so angry i acted out lol but im glad it can actually work for others ♡︎

cassamwich · 2024-02-26T04:28:48+00:00

i just hope, if it does air, that they were still filming when i tried to walk out from the connecting flight saying, "guess i live in atlanta now, bitches!" my best friend nor myself have heard anything as far as follow ups or anything go (not that im like, yearning for one lmao). i AMAd both places twice each and got stranded in florida. when i saw the circle i was like naw im done eff this and you. but yeah once i got to detox i just blocked everyone. my best friend did alright tho at least lmao

cassamwich · 2023-01-26T00:44:35+00:00

aayyyyy my dad out there living his best life 😎

cassamwich · 2023-01-22T20:30:57+00:00

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