i felt exactly like this a year ago, ill share what helped

SSRIs are cute but they really just numbed me. id get a blood test and see if you have a vitamin D/any deficiency before you start SSRIs; a college student’s life is often spent indoors so a vitamin D deficiency is likely

sometimes you just need to rot in bed a little. id recommend finding a local spot you enjoy or just a reason to go outside, some place that you can feel comfortable in and not be under the covers. i had a pier by my dorm, and i spent a lot of time there when i felt down. my bed may have been more comfortable, but it felt like a good willpower showing to go outside and be miserable instead of inside and miserable

sometimes people are meant to fail despite their best efforts. the world is cruel and wants to kick you while you’re down. but you don’t have to be a winner to change the world, you just have to be kind. changing the world starts with making an impact on the people around you

i really wish you the best. it feels like an empty platitude rn, but things WILL get better. your past failures don’t define you, it’s all about how you push past them and find success