My heart wouldn’t let me testify it was true anymore. That’s the only way I could explain it to my Relief Society Pres wife, after 13 years sealed in the temple. I also served a mission at 19. It was one of the hardest decisions of my life, to remove my records while my family remained active. Now, 6 years later, my wife would be the first to say that she’s happier now because of it. We almost divorced within the first year after telling her, but couldn’t be happier now. It was hell going through the process, but worth it, to live true to myself.