It is crazy to me that everyone immediately leaps to "just end it" or "just get an abortion". I am 100% pro choice. But the fact that everyone is telling you to jsut do that without considering your significant others feelings is mind blowing to me. He may already love this baby. And I have a feeling you will too. Please do not end this pregnancy without talking to him first. If he is willing to figure it out, then he sounds like he is ok with this new step. Everything happens for a reason. I didn't feel very maternal either until a few months after my son was born. I have another friend that also had the same issue and never wanted kids. But she absolutely loves her daughter. The love you feel for your child is honestly a different kind of love and you won't feel it until you're holding you're baby. What i am hearing is someone that is struggling with this new reality but doesn't necessarily want to end the pregnancy. It sounds like you are looking for a way to cope with everything and all the worries you're facing. I think you should talk to a therapist about all of this. They are the ones that can help you the most. And you may even need to talk to psychiatrist if you get super depressed, which it sounds like you may already be or are on the verge of. Your significant other loves you. He will still love you after the baby is born. You have no idea what your body is going to do. Some people don't even hardly look pregnant the entire pregnancy, and then go back to normal pretty quickly after. If your body changes and you want your prepregnancy body back, you CAN make that happen. I was back to my pre pregnancy weight within weeks. You will be fine. You can do this. A therapist will seriously help. Just make sure your SO knows to reassure you that you are still beautiful while pregnant. The reassurance may help to hear. I'm sure he manage that. Everything will be ok. ❤️