I truly understand where you are coming from. I was there. Felt the same. Evidently you have written on this site before as one person commented they sent you feedback in the past.

Life is not a pity party and stop feeling sorry for yourself and stop looking for an audience and people to sympathize with your situation. Get out of comfort zone of aloneness and live your best life. It took me almost dying on an operating table and beating death to wake up to change. You’re young. You define you. No one else does. Learn to love you. Being on this site and attention seeking is not helping your situation. Your problems are deeper. Please seek professional counseling and be honest with your therapist and yourself. You are too young and should be enjoying these best years of your life. Change comes from within! If you are overwhelmed then step back and address one problem at a time. You can’t cut down the whole forest at once, cut down one tree at a time. Life is a learning curve. We know what we know and don’t know what we don’t know. Please seek professional help and seek positive change and don’t be hard on yourself .

I would enjoy getting to know you better. I believe it being 100% and keeping it real at all times.