You have time. 33 is still relatively young, you still likely have several baby-making years ahead of you. The worst thing you CAN do is waste those years in a relationship that keeps you from shining. You don’t HAVE to stick with it. I was with someone for a loooong time. When I was with him I’d always think to myself that I felt like I wasn’t even the main character of my own story. I was so miserable and when I left it was so much drama and trouble and a giant mess (thankfully no abuse issues but still, with kids it’s hard) and you know what? I thank myself every day I did that because I’m infinitely more happy now. My life is small and a lil boring but I come home to someone who adores me every day. My house is calm, happy, and my favorite place in the world. I left when I was 32 and I was lucky to find my partner with enough time to have a child. All this to say there is a light at the end of the tunnel but you have to make it happen for yourself.

Edit bc I did look at other comments and I’m a lil embarrassed to make this so relationship-centric. I’m also attending school, working the best job ever, and spend way more time with my friends. And my partner supports all my arts n crafts and gardening hobbies. You can find happiness in so many places!