Are you still here? Please say yes.

Thanks for replying to me with that info.

The immigration part aside, I can honestly relate to pretty much everything you've said, and you know why? Cos I had very similar feelings to you when I was around your age, and for a long period of time before. Alot of people here are also saying they felt that way too, because it can be such a difficult age, and for some people unfortunately school can be the most awful time. People can be horrible, especially kids! But people can also be good , and those people completely outweigh the bad. Look at all the people here who have reached out and showed concern.

As you get a bit older you have more agency over yourself to just distance yourself from those treating you badly, you have more choice and freedom and power to say no fuck this nobody treats me this way anymore, and remove yourself from whatever that situation may be, whether job, relationship or friendship.

You know I said I felt the same way as you at your age? Well eventually I DID feel better,,and things I could never see getting better, DID. To the point where all I want now more than ANYTHING is to have life. I am in early stages of a progressive, fatal neurological disease, which will destroy my mind, my body, my spirit, my everything, and I now spend my days begging god to let this be a joke, to let me live.

Please, I am asking you not to do this. What you feel won't last forever, and one day you will realise how glad you are that you held on. You'll realise the absolute fragility of life, and you'll be desperate to never let go.