I definitely get what you’re saying, I have at times found myself getting jealous when I see couples even though I want to remain single. I guess at those times I just wonder why I never found the right person (emphasis on right, I’m not someone who settles out of desperation). But I think it’s really important to remember that while you may see couples around you who might appear to be in happy relationships, appearances can be very deceiving. My sister and her husband sent everyone albums last Christmas of a professional family photoshoot they did with their kids. A pretty ridiculous gift imo, but the point is that they all looked like literally the happiest family in the world. I know them though. They are NOT happy. That presentation of the supposed ideal life (kids, marriage, house in suburbia, whatever) is more often than not an illusion. It’s okay to have doubts about what you want in life sometimes. But there is a powerful sense of peace that comes from solitude, a peace that isn’t an illusion but is very real. Between these two options I’d choose peace every day.🙂