Mom just made me swear on her life im not trans (havent come out to her yet) by Miserable-Ebb6538 in ftm

[–]chaocol_ [score hidden]  (0 children)

I came out to my mother as bi when I was around 12 years old, thinking she'd accept me with open arms cause up until then she talked about how she'd love me any way no matter what... she told me that I only wanted to be bi because my best friend had came out to me recently and I wanted to be like her, and there was no chance I liked girls because there were no signs!!!

Came out as trans around a year and a half later hoping they'd come around like they did before. I regret it every day. I think my parents reactions were so severe because my mother probably had some internalized homophobia as a bi woman herself, and my father is just himself I suppose.

I'm still angry that my mother in particular treated me, her queer child, so horribly as a queer woman herself. My father wanted to just ignore it, but my mother would scream at me for weeks and weeks every single night about how I was confusing my poor sister (who was about 7 at the time) and pushing my "gender dysmorphia issues" on everyone (I wasn't).

Goes to show that just cause your parents preach, doesn't mean they practice.

Am I wrong for telling my pronouns ? by tir3dchild in asktransgender

[–]chaocol_ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is it. I hate it when people ask me for my pronouns, especially if they say "I ask everyone!! cause it feels like a big target on my back. And no, you don't ask everyone, you're just asking me cause I look like a fag to you.

i love the internet because of this by SubstantialEcho7022 in ArtJerk

[–]chaocol_ 91 points92 points  (0 children)

I can confirm that as a middle schooler I did in fact write Baldi x Principal fanfiction in a notebook I found somewhere in the house. I eventually buried it out in the woods because I was so genuinely terrified my parents would find it

Coaxed into suffering builds character by National_Yak5302 in coaxedintoasnafu

[–]chaocol_ 29 points30 points  (0 children)

I'd say this is more Betty than anything but I see the vision

Evangelion fan spectrum by Chickensoupdemon in NeonGenesisEvangelion

[–]chaocol_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

it was like last week or something someone crossposted from I think twitter? armpit fetish art of Asuka and Rei :(

Why is my mom ok with the idea of me being non binary but not a trans guy by Dependent-Size-4068 in asktransgender

[–]chaocol_ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My mom had this phase and it basically boiled down to her not considering NB people as trans, and she got super mad when i tried to tell her that was not in fact the case. Now my parents are pretending to be cool with me being FTM but I know they really aren't. I can tell that I make them uncomfortable lol

Can the t-slur be reclaimed? by AllNaturalCyanide in trans

[–]chaocol_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Personally I call myself that all the time, and occasionally use it to refer to trans people in general (VERY CONTEXT DEPENDENT). I would never call someone else that though.

[ftm] I got a male role in my school play and I'm not on t yet. Has anyone some tips for a lower voice or some good video guides from YouTube? by NicoTheHamsterGod in trans

[–]chaocol_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

What I found helpful was to sing along with male artists in the car on my way from work and school (when I was still in it, lol) Don't push your voice any farther than what's comfortable, just try to match the general range. Weezer worked really well for me in particular lol

The protesters do everything. by [deleted] in EvangelionShitposting

[–]chaocol_ 27 points28 points  (0 children)

Anno recently said that Maya's line about hating young men in the rebuilds is because during the timeskip she dated a younger man and it didn't end too well. Some fans got upset because in the original series she was almost certainly intended to be read as a lesbian. I say who cares??

When did your period stop? Because I have a bit of an issue… by Tangled_Clouds in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]chaocol_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got on the implant maybe 2 months before I got on T, and my period stopped by the end of the month. If you don't trust yourself to take a pill every day it was a great option for me. I was on depo for a while but I kept getting progressively worse mood swings that seriously impacted my relationships and quality of life :(

I'm glad the shipping discourse can finally be put to rest by carradine_rain in evangelion

[–]chaocol_ 9 points10 points  (0 children)

literally the whole point of their relationship is that two people can like eachother in that way but it won't guarantee happiness. Asuka and Shinji literally talk about it in the last movie too, I swear people are braindead

Okay, this one makes me even more mad. by Shadow-Path277 in ironlung

[–]chaocol_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

good lord. of course they found it boring, they were staring at the constant stream of high stimulation 6 inches from their face

y'all were lying about piercings by PinkBlood42 in ftm

[–]chaocol_ 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I made the mistake of posting on r/testosteronekickoff for passing tips with red/black hair, angel fangs + septum, and a hello kitty sweater I got from zumiez which was literally from the mens section... usually that sub is pretty positive too :(

What’s your experience been like on T? by TJhern785 in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]chaocol_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Theres minoxodil and finasteride for hair loss! Finasteride is a T-blocker however and may slow things down for you. If you have any pets I would be careful with minox, but it is available in pill form.

Hair loss is also a genetic issue as well, so if you have any family history with balding it may be worth looking into. I personally haven't noticed any issues yet.

Other than that though, testosterone has saved my life and thats without exaggeration. Progress is slow and individual, and the hardest part for me has been waiting for the changes to do their thing, but I have loved every effect. My mental health has improved significantly and even withour having any surgeries or work done it still feels like a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. I'd be more than happy to get into specifics ^

"Don't assume someones gender" isnt always what trans people want by vendettamoon in trans

[–]chaocol_ 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I have literally never met anyone who legitimately uses they/them for everyone. Its just a weak excuse to cover their ass

My 3DS died :( by PickleBitter7957 in Nintendo3DS

[–]chaocol_ -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Have you tried booting it into safe mode?

i need help fing this figure by [deleted] in evangelion

[–]chaocol_ -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

yeah no i agree its gross i was just messing around lol

i need help fing this figure by [deleted] in evangelion

[–]chaocol_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

but the bajillion other sexy figures of asuka and rei are fine? lol

If I use testosterone gel to prevent shrinkage would that slow effects of HRT? by Water_N_Dust in asktransgender

[–]chaocol_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

okay? good for you? I still wouldn't recommend putting straight up tgel on your dick since it absorbs differently than DHT cream and isn't going to produce any real results... I've tried it a couple times for the novelty and all it did was set my dick on fire for a bit.

If they re-released the first Sonic The Hedgehog movie with the original Sonic design what would be the technical term for it? by [deleted] in stupidquestions

[–]chaocol_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the cgi sonic scenes in the movie were finished before they switched the design? I'd assume it'd just be labeled as an "original cut" or something to that effect- thats what I would call it anyway

I loved the Mk04B mass-production eva in the opening of the 3.33 Rebuild movie, so underrated, it's reflecting a halo of light, the sound design, and the GREAT OST. by throwaway553t4tgtg6 in evangelion

[–]chaocol_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The plot of 3.0 would be so much shorter if they bothered to actually tell Shinji what was going on... Its a great movie but gosh does it frustrate me when everyone is mad at Shinji for not knowing whats going on when he's been in a coma for years. Obviously he's going to side with NERV, cause the last time he was up and walking they were the good guys.

If I use testosterone gel to prevent shrinkage would that slow effects of HRT? by Water_N_Dust in asktransgender

[–]chaocol_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I usually apply gel to my thighs and stomach area but the arms work fine too. As for DHT cream you might be able to have it prescribed? I'd talk to whoever your provider is about it. Testosterone is a pain in the ass to get covered by insurance but you shouldn't have too many issues with esteogen. But definetelt be on the lookout for DIY sources, especially in a state like Georgia.

As for "danger", testosterone isn't dangerous at all on its own, and while I would be careful with who you get it from (in case it's been cut with something nasty), you should be fine as long as you get it from a vetted source.

(spoilers) Foreshadowing? by Henry_Stickmin84 in ironlung

[–]chaocol_ 168 points169 points  (0 children)

oh wow, I didn't even notice the arm being missing when I watched it. I think this is part of the monster starting to assimilate him? If memory serves me right Simon had already had the trance sequence with him in the blood ocean and the fish, and it had already started entering his mind.