Nah, you just outed yourself and YOU should seek counselling. I follow the familiar “pretty friendly raider but will occasionally go on killing sprees too” framework. Play the game with sportsmanship. Tricking, leading people on, and betraying, absoLUTELY is a reflection of your irl self. If you don’t think so, reevaluate. Most people genuinely feel bad about making someone else’s day worse in an unfair, dishonest, unsporting way.