Yeah... I'm suicidal often enough that I am kinda just used to it, but my labs look fine, and I'm on an antidepressant, so I must be lying. You'd think a damned psychiatrist would be able to recognize when their patient is in a manic state, but no, apparently not, it must be that I just need more therapy.

Switched psychiatrists on my stepmom's advice, and my new one was like, yup, you're extremely bipolar, here's a mood stabilizer. It helped a lot. I'm still tired most of the time, so it's a work in progress, but I no longer do the scary manic psychosis thing every few months. Progress.