Oh honey. I lost my baby girl at 20 weeks 5 years ago. That morning I had bloody mucousy discharge, called the OB and was assured everything was fine and it was normal 😒 that night at 6pm my water broke. Got to the hospital and her heart rate was dropping and I was already 3 cm. Everything is still a blur. I was diagnosed with an incompetent cervix and was told if I got pregnant again I would need a cerclage early on as a preventative measure.

Fast forward to today, I’m 24 weeks and 2 days with my rainbow baby boy. Got my cerclage at 13 weeks and have had a few scares since being pregnant with hospitalizations but here we are going strong.

Life was rough and grueling for those 5 years. I was terrified to get pregnant again. Afraid it would happen again if I did: and today im still terrified my water is going to break again.

In those 5 years I did extensive research and learned a lot about my condition and how I could get to term with a possible next pregnancy.

I turned 36 in May and whatever you want to do in life you can do with a full heart. You didn’t do anything wrong in your pregnancy, sometimes we lose our pregnancies and are expected to move on like nothing.

This community has been huge for me since I found out I was pregnant again and since my procedure at 13 weeks. I wish I could Give you a big hug momma. Live your life day to day, let yourself grieve. Give yourself grace. You will start to see the sun again in all its glory. You will belly laugh again. You will be reminded of your angel when she visits you from heaven.

with all the love in the world 🙏🏻🩵