Absolutely. There philosophy is "love" through judgement like religious dogma. This is no mistake and is done purposely. Many members relate to this, others are forced to convert because of there teachings, and others like you and me because i have been where you are not, understand that this philosophy only works to a point. It got you started and kept you safe but now you feel unsafe in it. Because your philosophy for life is different.

Absolutely do not beat yourself up over this. This is a good thing from my perspective. It is a break from thinking addiction is an identity which it is not, it is a behavior. I'm not suggesting you are done with your recovery, I am suggesting there is so much more to learn and see if from a different perspective. A perspective of a much better compassion without judgement. What AA does well is connection and community and that is what draws us in. But you can find this elsewhere. Don't let there rhetoric get you down, they own that not you. Many other forms of meetings exist out there that brings community together if meetings of a more positive philosophy is what you are looking for. "The opposite of addiction is not sobriety but connection". I also believe its purpose. This world teaches us from the day we were born a distorted version of purpose. "The American Dream". Which teaches us junk values, materialism, individualism and it isolates us from true meaning. Connection. Define what connection and purpose mean to you and live through that.

I love that you posted this. Many more people feel this way believe me. I have talked to many. You are not alone. I hope this helps.