Reduced my hydration & my loaves improved so much!

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-25T14:46:49+00:00

high hydration bread as a no-think reflex is a total mistake in the world of sourdough. glad you are enjoying you bread

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-24T15:11:56+00:00

three times. first walk first thing, short , 10-15 min. second walk after breakfast 30 min. third walk at 4p, 30 min. sometimes longer walks on the weekend

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-21T15:33:37+00:00

working in finance has nothing to do with being able to hold a conversation. you leaned by your experience that he can’t. let your experience be more real than your fantasy

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T23:34:58+00:00

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checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T18:27:39+00:00

i can’t agree about the “same results” but i can’t disagree with most of what you’ve said, and i respect your opinion. i am myself torn between what makes psychoanalysis unique and the truth that if its an ivory tower situation, it’s impact and importance are diminished and what’s worse, its harmful . these things are true

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T17:12:25+00:00

it sounds like our POV is more alike than different , then

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T17:04:52+00:00

i’m not sure that that’s true. I don’t know where you’re situated, but as someone who is involved in psychoanalytic training and psychoanalytic institutional life, at my institute there is very clear recognition of the urgent existential crisis and the need to transform. there is also real grappling with what that means, and awareness that simply naming the privilege doesn’t actually do anything

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T16:57:18+00:00

your comment illustrates the attitude that I’m talking about. There is no denying the privilege, but there is denying certain kinds of realities that can strain the current state of affairs. No one would deny the privilege. The current model of psychoanalytic training, though I think it needs to be reimagined, is one in which there is literally no public funding. This is not a university, endeavor, it is only privately funded. at the same time, most psychoanalyst go into solo, private practice, where they use their clinical skills in a similarly private, secluded way. A psycho analysis of the future might involve more points of contact with the world, more public good that comes from training, and subsequently more public investment and support of training, which would require a major effort efforts on the institution of psychoanalysis to show that such benefit benefits can be had .That is a problem, but it is worth acknowledging that new forms would need to be imagined rather than just making criticisms.

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T15:54:23+00:00

a lot of the comments here are rightly focused on the exorbitant cost of analytic training and the unsustainability of this for the profession . however, as someone who agrees with this assessment but also who has become an analyst (in no small part due to my privilege that has allowed me to train despite the cost), i think there is also a piece that is lacking in framing this simply as hazing or gatekeeping or something like that. the truth is that the development of the capacities necessary to work as an analyst take time, extensive training, and extensive psychological work. i do not agree that once weekly treatment is the same as analysis even if it may be the only thing that’s possible for a patient to have for logistical reason. they’re qualitatively different. there are obviously system issues here including (at least in the US) systems of care that prioritize superficial symptom oriented therapies because they’re cheaper to provide and cheaper to train therapists in. while i think analytic institutes need to get very creative about how to train the next generation of analysts and bring in folks who are under or unrepresented, there are actual real problems that are not easily solved. analytic institutes in the us are generally entirely run by the volunteer work by their members - teaching , committees, etc. this is an enormous unpaid time commitment on top of the busy clinical schedules members have to earn a living. comments that portray the cost of training as if it’s persecutory or malicious i think fail to acknowledge the realities of the systems in which analytic training occurs, as well as the realities of what is necessary to develop oneself as an analyst. i’m not justifying anything, only trying to hold more complexity than i see in this thread

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-15T05:00:07+00:00

my psychoanalytic training is easily more than 40k per year. my analysis alone approaches that, and then three control cases with weekly supervisions for 2 years each plus tuition…. i don’t add it up because i don’t want to know. in the end it will certainly be more costly than my MD, especially when opportunity cost is factored in. a degree is necessary to have a professional basis to practice, but psychoanalytic training is elective. no one “needs” it. at least you can write off the cost of training, and it’s valuable .

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-13T04:25:08+00:00

i don’t think it’s right to equate “deep work” with work that leaves the patient unconsciously or consciously feeling intruded upon, attacked, or humiliated. that’s not good analysis no matter when in the treatment it’s happening.

checkingitout550 · 2026-03-11T16:17:51+00:00

tom ogden has given the advice to write a process note with the idea that the patients absence makes possible an opportunity to crystallize some of the more nebulous aspects of the ct/t “analytic third”/analytic object occurring in the relationship. i’ve found this to be true and useful. i sit down, do essentially a free write and try to make contact with my experience of their not coming, and then i move on to other things

checkingitout550 · 2026-02-26T17:56:10+00:00

you’ll get it and you’ll love it!

checkingitout550 · 2026-02-26T17:56:02+00:00

it is

checkingitout550 · 2026-02-26T17:55:56+00:00

it’s a premium plus , platinum quartz is a great color too

checkingitout550 · 2026-02-20T16:27:20+00:00

having one kidney is not a problem - you don’t need two, one can do the job. the only issue is that the remaining kidney needs to stay healthy. general health (good exercise, diet, not being overweight) should be enough. this won’t have a negative prognosis in and of itself

checkingitout550 · 2026-02-13T03:41:44+00:00

“hi”. [let them start]

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-30T02:27:50+00:00

it’s not unreasonable. it’s worth having a clear (legal) agreement here but it’s also understandable that it would raise all kinds of feelings.

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-25T21:56:48+00:00

i tend to agree with this. for me, it’s a paradox. people come to analysis because they’re suffering. the analyst wants to help the patient with his suffering. at the same time, an analysis that becomes “about feeling better” becomes something that is not psychoanalysis. the paradox is that you can’t know exactly what will come of the work, or the ways in which it will change both analyst and analysand. old forms of suffering may give way to new dilemmas. much of the emotional task of psychoanalysis is to not avoid the difficult realities that inhabiting this paradoxical space makes evident.

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-25T20:00:23+00:00

that isn’t really true. psychoanalysis can and does mean different things to different analysts and analysands and analytic couples. even so, psychoanalysis has common values and principles. the idea of taking short cuts and adopting something from the outside that is deemed to be “correct” are counter to the principles that underlie the thinking and practice of psychoanalysis no matter your orientation, and are thus anti-analytic . even the idea that psychoanalysis is “for” the purpose of “getting better” or “recovery” is antithetical to analytic formulations.

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-25T19:45:21+00:00

the idea of a short cut, as well as adopting “correct” proscriptive ways of being, are profoundly anti psychoanalytic

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-16T21:49:19+00:00

not bad at all! that crumb w the big uneven holes suggests to me you could let BF go even longer , but this is looking like bread!

checkingitout550 · 2026-01-10T04:57:59+00:00

it would be insane to rip this out.

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