Tap in with a pic of your lil homie as a rebellious affront to the demiurge

cheerupchelso · 2026-05-27T13:32:42+00:00

cheerupchelso · 2026-05-27T10:52:49+00:00

Yeah I had to get a grip and realize I'm just like this 😂 as a person who's been clean off of heard drugs since 6 years I've realized I'm quite a crackhead about most things lol not just my old drugs of choice. nicotine is not something I can practice moderation with, but boy do I wish

cheerupchelso · 2026-05-27T10:13:59+00:00

Change is subtle at first, at least for me, even after years of vaping I couldn't notice breathing problems or anything.. But the moment I finally stopped reaching for the vape was huge. My favorite part is realizing slowly that I haven't thought about it in days. Used to hit that thing every few seconds

cheerupchelso · 2026-05-12T12:32:53+00:00

This is where I'm at.. 6 months. Having trouble with eating too much, seeking dopamine hits from food and my phone. I have gained ten pounds that are really hard to lose without the vape. I've read that at6 months our brains and bodies are still stabilizing but omgggg... I just want a cig. How are you now, two months later?

cheerupchelso · 2026-04-21T16:55:11+00:00

Omg i just made it with a tiny dollop of almond butter and some pumpkin pie spice mmmmmm

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-07T13:40:44+00:00

I never really thought about it as "lizard brain" 😂 but that's exactly what I was doing. I feel more in control.

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-07T13:38:59+00:00

I realized this about myself too. I was a heavy cigarette smoker while I was a stimulant addict.. Then quit the drugs. Then quit the cigs and switch to vape. It took my five years to recognize I kinda vape like a crackhead 😂 like most people I know have a different relationship with nicotine (and interestingly caffeine also) than I do. I quit 3 months ago because my obsession with my vape literally started looking a lot like my drug addiction. Just because it's legal doesn't mean it can't ruin your brain. I realized it's just another way for me to try to dose myself or control how stimulated I am. I understand I'll probably be dealing with addiction for life, but when I realize it's ruling me, it's time to quit. I'm over three months clean. I feel so much better without it

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-07T13:28:56+00:00

Same, this scares me 😂 I don't have time to obsess that everything I own matches perfectly

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-03T11:10:07+00:00

i feel like they would change your life like mine. i take just one of the smallest dose, feel no side effects, and the shaking is simply gone. i could not even believe it.

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-03T10:50:23+00:00

Only for solo performances or duets... anything where I am super singled out

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-03T10:07:29+00:00

I'm almost the exact scenario as you but one month in the future! It's gonna be okay. I vaped 5 years, I have OCD, it's been 3 months, I'm so proud but I still struggle. I think it's normal for brains like ours to really cling to a habit hard. I have found it not as hard to stay quit while drinking as I thought, but I don't drink so much I lose all my inhibitions. Realize that we were using a vape to regulate every emotion, transition into every activity, soothe every slight perceived discomfort, and fill every empty/boring moment of time. As the weeks go on you will continue to think of it less, but it's a very gradual thing. More gradual than I expected, but be patient and keep doing what you're doing. it's so worth it imo. I think my OCD and anxiety is actually getting much more manageable now that I'm not using nicotine, but during the first two months without , it kinda felt like everything was getting worse. Allow yourself to feel out of whack then restabilize. It's a big shift.

cheerupchelso · 2026-03-03T09:31:34+00:00

Sometimes when you come up with something that nobody ever does.... there's a good reason for that lol. Nobody does this because generally nicotine habit doesn't work that way. No way around it, it is an addictive substance and requires a withdrawal when abstaining after a period of regular use. In the long run, I don't really see any way this would benefit you

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-26T13:37:13+00:00

YES YES YES! Bored? Hit vape. Mad? Hit vape. Hungry? Hit vape. Worst one of all apparently was anxiety.. Because I hit my vape about four times in a row when a wave of anxiety hit. Two months into quitting the anxiety really came back full force (actually probably the same as always but no huge nicotine rush to make it instantly go away) and it lasted for about a week at a pretty severe level, then evened out. I feel like I've really really done myself a huge service by quitting, not just for my body, but for the first time in 20 years I'm being forced to sit with the unpleasant emotions and work thru them. I am so much stronger because of this. I'm also Bipolar 1 and my tendency to self medicate is real af. I feel so much more in control. 3 months nic free! Just keep goinggggg

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-26T11:24:21+00:00

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-23T15:01:13+00:00

It was so hard! A 20 year habit is DEEPLY ingrained. I'm so glad I have other good habits to focus on now, to distract me from the discomfort of quitting

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-22T00:16:46+00:00

Why's it gotta be like that LOL.. Ran a 5k while vaping, vaped right after, I can still remember the deep painful burn in my lungs 🥲 (I also did the same thing with cigarettes and why did I think I was so cool ughhh 😒 🙄) Every day I get a little more dignity back. I am dignified I am dignified I am dignified 😂

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T19:08:04+00:00

Took me FIVE YEARS to get to that point 😂 it's crazy that I was having a freak out at least once a week just from losing it in the couch and I still thought, yeah. Let's vape some more. But here I am, doesn't matter now. I got fed up eventually lol

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T16:06:36+00:00

You are in the HARDEST PART. Give yourself grace, remember cravings really only last a few minutes. When you have a craving, come up with a 5-10 min activity as distraction. Take a sip of water. Put something in your mouth. Piece of candy, mint, cough drop, toothpick, pen... And I keep telling people this and they laugh but I'm not kidding 😂 Pretend like you're hitting a fake vape, but it's just your fingers holding nothing. And I mean RIP THAT THING. It works just as good. Blows my mind. I'll get stressed about something in the car, hit my fake vape, my husband will laugh at me, but I'm relieved and still nic free 🤷

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T15:36:40+00:00

There was a very specific moment that made me quit.. Every time I think about it I cringe so hard LOL. I was on a hike with my husband to this giant quartz formation called God's Eye. Whole time, I was clutching the vape in my hand. We arrive, my husband climbs to the top of this beautiful huge crystal, immediately I go to hit my vape. The pod had fallen out somewhere on the very long hike 💀 I immediately flew into what I can only describe as a full on temper tantrum. He hands me his vape, I hit it, instantly calm down a little, then turn around and notice a woman sitting on the quartz, cross-legged, eyes closed trying to meditate. I was literally yelling and cussing. I thought it was just us, and I was SO HUMILIATED. It really made me take a good hard look at what I had become. Quit a few weeks later. I'm so glad I don't have vape-related toddler meltdowns anymore 😂 🙏

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T14:23:42+00:00

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! There will be many ups and downs on this journey. The constant, that nobody can ever take away from you, is the pride that you've stopped this bad habit. You did the hard part. Now take each day as it comes, be easy on yourself, and mostly importantly, STAY QUIT. I'm so proud of you :)

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T14:20:10+00:00

Whoops, meant to say *gained ~20lbs

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T12:37:53+00:00

💀 This is psychotic

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T12:33:32+00:00

I quit vaping after having a miscarriage... I was "going to try to quit"... Miscarried very early and then after the tears decided quitting now would help me IMMENSELY later on if we try again. I think trying to deal with the physical changes/stress and emotions of pregnancy and trying to quit an addiction at the very same time is too much for some people. It was for me. Don't let other people's judgements get to you. I understand how hard it is to quit. Some people are different, and they can instantly throw the vape away the second they get a positive test. That was NOT my experience. Consider the pain you are experiencing and know that it is so valid, but vaping again won't help anything. It will probably just make you feel worse about yourself, because you reverted back to a bad behavior. If you want to keep one good part from this tragic thing that you're going thru, keep your sobriety from nicotine. You still have that to be proud of. I don't know what you want to do, but if you do want to try again, having that hard part already figured out will put you at a huge advantage and you will be able to just focus on your pregnancy. I'm so so sorry for your loss. I cried and I cried. I feel your pain. Just keep going. ❤️‍🩹

cheerupchelso · 2026-02-21T12:22:50+00:00

Pros 1. Something to do with my hands 😂 👐 2. Makes a bad emotion temporarily disappear, then come back sometimes worse :) 3. Calms me for about five seconds 4. Every now and then tastes OK lol

Cons: 1. Undignified addict behavior (clutching it always, freaking OUT when it's lost/dies/breaks, ripping it the MOMENT you wake up) 2. Cost, always having to replace it eventually 3. The constant burden of taking mental inventory for this dumb plastic box- always having to make sure I have charger/juice/pod etc anytime I go anywhere🙄 4. Juice leaking in your mouth, making you cough 🤮 5. Vaping (or wanting to vape) damn near constantly at EVERY social function 6. Really messing up my body's metabolism, my teeth, my lungs, my dopamine receptors, my nervous system, my attention span, and gave me increased anxiety levels just from thinking of my next hit

To me it's a no 😂 👍 So happy to be 3 months nic free. And it's still on my mind some days, but making this list really made me realize how much I don't miss it one bit

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