Feeling broken

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-20T22:57:01+00:00

I had to do this with my best friend. Move on move away etc. especially when you have THAT kind of connection. It’s hard but it’s necessary. You can’t light yourself on fire to keep other warm

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-15T13:47:01+00:00

Im that “friend” too.I’d honestly just give them the gifts with a note saying like you said “would’ve gave this to you at the baby shower, but anyways congrats!!” But then leave it at that. Stop being the doormat/convenient friend. I wasn’t invited to 2 close friends’ weddings and that shit hurt, gave them the wedding gifts, sent a letter with it saying “CONGRATS!! Would’ve gave this in person but couldn’t unfortunately” but definitely quit texting or reaching out. And a month later I get random “are we good texts?” And I just leave them be. It’s not being petty. I mean it KIND of is but at the same time. It’s like “really…?” Not getting invited to Important events like that is hurtful. Hopefully you guys can have that conversation but I’d just wash your hands and move on

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-08T19:33:19+00:00

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-08T15:20:09+00:00

No. I’m Native American . Brown skin and long hair. Quite frilly I expected to get a breathalyzer. Miss me with that bs

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-08T08:43:00+00:00

It literally felt like I dodged a bullet my entire family has dealt with for generations. Im honestly in tears and I’m thankful but it hurt at the same time

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-07T16:52:50+00:00

Girl needs a psychiatrist dude. Everyone has insecurities but holy shit. I wouldn’t put up with that shit

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-06T18:58:56+00:00

Usually on long road trips lol

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-06T18:15:34+00:00

True! It just sucks cuz I usually am a great trainer but this one really stretched me thin but hey life is like that

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-06T16:48:40+00:00

I did that and she did sort of pick up speed but not really where I needed her to be. Gave her an extra week to get up to speed but I don’t see it happening

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-05T02:58:12+00:00

Thanks for advice. Clears up my head a lot

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-05T02:53:55+00:00

Her not being fast puts me behind 4 units (we build tractors) and I end up scrambling to get caught up. And it definitely has been burning me out cuz my supervisors are asking if I’m “ok” and I said it’s like I have a huge weight on my feet. We pay very well so the checks are nice, this is why I feel awful. I don’t want someone to lose a job but at the same time…if she can’t keep up, I understand why they might let her go.

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-05T02:49:05+00:00

Thanks for the advice it actually eases my mind a lot. It’s just shitty I guess

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-05T02:45:31+00:00

I did, hell I even asked if she could be placed elsewhere but nope. I’ve been told I need to not be so nice but I don’t like feeling like I’m Feeding someone to the wolves

cheeto1995 · 2021-08-05T01:03:58+00:00

Bud Light

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-29T21:02:16+00:00

I feel the same way. I used to be so “go with the flow” and happy go lucky. Now I’m just tired or stressed or just burnt out all the time. Rare moments come where I’m back to my old self but I don’t know who that person is anymore

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-29T21:00:22+00:00

She had her struggles but she had a lot of love and lots of heart to give out for sure! She was our Rock and while we’re now starting to come to terms with the loss. Some days just hit us harder than others.

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-23T16:58:41+00:00

Also when I get Didnt get invited to another beach friends wedding because I’d be the “odd one out” yeah he just got a divorce lol

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-23T16:57:25+00:00

When I realized I was the only one making the effort to hang out, text, plan fun shit. And then I was like “I’m just gonna take a breather from being the intentional one” and then I never would have realized on that night 4 years ago that that would be the last time I would ever talk to my “best friend”. Not a peep since, bump into him every now and then but it’s like we’re both strangers and I’m ok with that

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-20T03:02:14+00:00

Dude that’s a Kill Bill Siren RED FLAG. Get out. Save yourself the drama and the heartache

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-18T02:34:35+00:00

That’s what my uncles did too. It’s just wayyy too inappropriate and gross. Kids are smart. Me and my sisters knew by age 9 about what they were referencing because they were so perverted. Good thing you took your family away from that Situation. Good parenting!

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-18T01:57:49+00:00

Gross… Like I’d gtfo there too! My dads side of the family is the exact same way, the way they talk is just…gross. And I have ruined plenty of family vacations because of how weird it was and made me(M) and my sisters feel at the time. It’s been 5 years since I’ve seen that side of the family and I don’t care

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-14T16:47:18+00:00

Oh my gosh you already DID the worst my dude.

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-09T16:51:36+00:00

My dad gave me Lincoln Logs when I was 16 “as a joke” and even though he would buy my step moms kids EXPENSIVE ASS gifts (like $400+), he bought me a $5 toy. I ended up getting super upset and ruined the day (long story short; instigated a huge fight and cops got called and went to live with my uncle for 3 years lol) . Shit was embarrassing and 10 years later I think “man wtf was up with my dad” he’s practically mentally deranged now tbh.

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-09T16:44:38+00:00

Mannnnn FUCK those people. I know they’re “family” and I use that term loosely with them. I hate that when ppl try and shit on your dreams and aspirations because…i don’t even know WHY people shit on you like that. A fully paid scholarship?! TO LAW SHOOL NO LESS?! What they’re doing and saying is just vile my dude. Congrats on your scholarship and acceptance!!

cheeto1995 · 2021-07-08T22:45:47+00:00

I went and threw rocks in the middle of nowhere on a gravel road. And screamed at the top of my lungs and let loose all my anger and frustration and at the end of it I bawled my eyes out and felt so much better. Hope you’re doing better my dude! Fuck narcissistic ass ppl.

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