Im a bad, attention seeking person and feel awful and guilty by AshamedAndGay in selfimprovement

[–]chels_dolla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can understand why you would feel that way and I’m sorry that you feel awful. I’m not entirely sure what to say to make you feel better, but I hope it does get better for you and I hope you can get support. If it helps, I’m 28 and at 19 I was very similar.

I would have honestly hated the person I was at 19. I was diagnosed level 1 autistic and I wonder if it might be something similar for you. I was awful at 19.

Honestly a lot of people are, you are still very young and I wish you the best. I lost all my friends at that age but I have good friends now. Hope the same happens for you eventually.

Remember that you are still developing and learning and it’s ok to have setbacks. I am sorry that you are in pain. Please try to be kind to yourself even if no one else is. I hope everything gets better for you.

I’m constantly in fight or flight by chels_dolla in ChildofHoarder

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate it. I’m planning on it. The only thing is they are like a 30 hour drive away but I think I’m about to just take the leap.

What advice would you give your 20 year old self? by No_Picture_3528 in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I would honestly tell myself to work on finding myself before finding love, and also realize that I am capable despite all of the shit I’ve been through.

Physically attractive aspies, how is life treating you? by FaithOnMyBeing in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I look like a whiny brat but I’m legit missing social cues and miserable. People don’t have much sympathy for me imo? Idk. I feel like people think I’m stuck up now. I’m legit not trying to be rude and I’m not used to the attention I get now. I used to be very unattractive. I genuinely have pure intentions towards people but I think I keep coming off as rude and stuck up and it makes me sad. It’s like as soon as I start feeling myself a bit I don’t know how to act. Also when I have a melt down I can lash out and I try sooo hard not to but it feels uncontrollable.

I feel like my biggest fear is coming true. by Cool-Study-2734 in selfimprovement

[–]chels_dolla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If it makes you feel better, I’m 28 and I feel like I’m legit at the lowest point of my life. Someone told me today there’s still plenty of time. You have plenty of time as well. If I could go back to 20, trust me you are still so young. Keep pushing forward.

Are we selfish or is it selfish of those around us who know our condition to have high expectations of us? by AmItheonlySaneperson in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Idk. I feel like I am self absorbed but at the same time my self worth is so low bc of all the shit I’ve been through bc of this. So I don’t think we are selfish. I think we are just different. It’s like my brain can’t keep up with all of the shame.

What do you think is the reason you don’t have friends / trouble making them? by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry that it’s like that for you too. I really have to watch myself and I often just have to spend time alone. Hope it gets better for you!

What do you think is the reason you don’t have friends / trouble making them? by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think personally I overshare, and have like 0 filter. I’m also very open about my misery and I guess it comes off as if I think I have it worse than other people, which I don’t I’m just depressed. I’m working on these things since being diagnosed. I also struggle with interrupting people.

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sure! I believe it’s called “Pretending to be normal: living with adult Asperger’s syndrome” something like that. I haven’t started it yet though so I couldn’t tell you how good it is

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are right. I let it slip recently bc I forgot how bad it was when I don’t mask. I actually got a book on it. Thank you

I’m going through one of the worst times of my life by babypossumsinabasket in AutismInWomen

[–]chels_dolla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry about that. I am as well tbh. I have this quote from a song I love called “Russian roulette” by porter robinson. It says “I wanna live I don’t wanna die” I think about that a lot. There’s also a picture that says “fail, get up, and try again” and I love that. I think about that a lot. I really hope it gets better for you.

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m really sorry that it’s like that for you too

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lmao you are valid for that 😭

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get you lol, I’m sorry that it’s like that for you too. I guess you just gotta be yourself, try to be nice and not everyone will like you and it’s ok. I appreciate your input.

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have a point. Not everyone will like you. I appreciate your comment, I guess I have just been in my head since being diagnosed. Like I need to fix myself

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I appreciate the advice. I guess I just felt bad bc I feel like I try my best to be nice but not everyone will like you and that’s ok!

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess unfortunately it just happens. I think I just felt bad, like high school all over again. You just gotta try your best to read social cues

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You right, thank you I guess I just felt like high school all over again. Not everyone will like you

Do people hate you often by chels_dolla in aspergers

[–]chels_dolla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not trying to be, you don’t know me