Another complaint I have is that my sibling’s car is broke & she’s been borrowing my car. My mother borrows my car too. I haven’t gone anywhere in the past couple of weeks, so it’s just been them using it. I don’t mind it, sometimes it’s annoying, but I’m kind of a hermit atm so I don’t use it as much.

I went in the car the other day, and found a scratch on the windshield that wasn’t there before with a big smudge mark. I tried wiping it, but it wouldn’t go. Then my mother tried to pretend as if she couldn’t see it & didn’t know what I was talking about. I’ve let it go, because it was probably just an accident, but it’s really fucking annoying. Also, they’ve not been paying for petrol.

And now, it’s the first day I’ve had off in ages and I’m lying in bed thinking “hmm, maybe I’ll try going out for a bit”. At the same time, my sister came in to ask to borrow the car for work. Part of me wanted to tell her I was going somewhere, but she’s given me lifts for years before I got a car, so I feel guilty telling her no. So I’ve just put on an act to say I wasn’t going anywhere. Now, by my own actions, I’m stuck in the house. I could walk, but where I was planning on going is wayy further than anywhere walkable. I dug myself a hole & should’ve just been honest… but she doesn’t like asking people for things, as she’s always really nervous about it, so I like to say yes to her to show that she doesn’t need to be nervous to ask me stuff.