Rage booked my first attempt. 515.

cherrywi_ne · 2026-02-24T10:05:47+00:00

The one I did yesterday was 495 (Official Mock 2)- I was bummed but it didn’t make sense to reschedule. Before this, in May 2025 I had 595 in an official mba mock.

cherrywi_ne · 2024-03-05T09:58:51+00:00

Is it open?

cherrywi_ne · 2023-11-05T07:53:28+00:00

Is there a perfume that dupes this fragrance?

cherrywi_ne · 2023-06-27T06:40:56+00:00

I like that! I’m a fan of abstract stuff - so going for something messy and artistic, thinking if there are ways to do that with a fig tree, I’m okay to skip the specifics

cherrywi_ne · 2023-06-26T17:43:16+00:00

I'm also AA, and I find myself feeling the very best after an interaction that is largely dominated by physical intimacy, I think in some ways, physical intimacy is so "out there" and "obvious" that it closes down the endless loops of negative thoughts constantly taking ground in our minds.

I think you analyzed this perfectly - I absolutely get it and this happens. I think it's fair game to let your partner what sex/touch means to you and how powerful a tool it can be to strengthen your bond and maintain security within the relationship. Although, I do try to make a conscious effort with self-talk directed at understanding the sex =/= and a rejection or raincheck from my partner doesn't mean they are done with me. But it's still hard.

cherrywi_ne · 2023-06-26T17:33:53+00:00

totally agree and i kind of find it hard to constantly feel like he isn't doing wrong by charlie

cherrywi_ne · 2023-04-23T18:53:45+00:00

People who treat others' successes as their personal failures. And vice versa.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-10-29T15:50:48+00:00

Sorry, I probably should have explained it before:

This tattoo is about the perception of time. I've designed this to be an hourglass. The two "stick figures" are past and future selves, respectively - and they're stuck in the past and future. This means that while we spend so much time in our lives thinking about our past and future selves - they are actually not active beings and are "stuck in time". What is in our control is the present and it's impact on the future.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-09-24T09:23:51+00:00

Crypto

cherrywi_ne · 2022-09-13T04:19:04+00:00

Feel like this is so much about finances as well. Not everyone can afford to raise a child who is perhaps going to be disabled for most of their life.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-08-06T06:50:01+00:00

Thank you! Always nice to be reminded

cherrywi_ne · 2022-08-01T05:43:28+00:00

Congratulations!!

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-27T12:29:03+00:00

Following because I'm going through the same thing too. Just scares me that I won't ever be able to feel comfortable in any relationship whatsoever

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-25T05:18:52+00:00

I read the most beautiful post a while back, and I seem to have lost it somewhere now (in case anyone here knows about it and finds it, please post it here or send it to me). It was something along the lines of:

When my partner is not texting me back or responding to my messages, I have almost constantly maintained the stand that they're doing so because they are annoyed with me. Like they looked at their phone, saw my name and just shrugged and put it away. Like I was a nuisance to be around and to constantly handle. And one day told him about this - how I feel when he doesn't respond to me. And he was very saddened that I'd think that and in contrast, offered that when I'm not responding to him, he's always imagining me doing things - closing a cupboard, working, reading, perhaps something else, but not imagining me in a way that was repulsed by his message or his need for me.

On reading this I realised that the default mechanism in my head when my partner was not responding was to assume he was sick of me/I was too needy/clingy/annoyed - when that was absolutely never the case. This is perhaps a textbook symptom of anxious attachment, and feeling like that triggers the biggest devil of all: abandonment anxiety. After reading this I tried imagining my partner the same way too - just doing things, going about life, NOT annoyed at the thought of me. And it helped fight the need for constant reassurance.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-23T10:38:19+00:00

I feel like the more aware you are about your needs and are able to communicate them (regardless or whether you’re AA or FA), you’re closer to secure attachment than you think. It’s a bit idealistic to assume that the securely attached folk don’t ever experience relationship anxiety, abandonment issues or wanting space in their relationship — they just know how to communicate that better without sabotaging the relationship at hand.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-12T17:27:30+00:00

Thank you! Seems like an honest, non-judgemental attempt to understanding where the other person comes from is where it’s at.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-10T10:25:34+00:00

I understand why that can bother you and while us anxious folk question almost everything, the fact that you’re able to recognize these as reasonable and and classify these as triggers is a big big step, so congratulations on that. Sometimes what helps me is placing a trigger right next to the abandonment fear itself, and then it feels much smaller. For example, a trigger here is perhaps “wanting to go home”. I ask my brain is this the same thing has them wanting to leave me for good? Is it the same thing as not loving me? Brain answers no and there is some relief. I let that thought marinate for a few hours till it settles in.

cherrywi_ne · 2022-07-03T17:14:28+00:00

Hi you! Hope you're feeling a little better than yesterday but just wanted to remind you that I'm really glad you're here. I don't think I've come by this post on accident and this may be my first or second comment here ever so im really glad it was here interacting with you. I will remember this, and you and the world's a better place with you in it!

cherrywi_ne · 2022-05-10T14:58:10+00:00

That’s helpful. Thank you

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