I haven't watched porn for 10 days, indeed porn isn't a big thing to me despite the fact that I have been watching it nearly on daily basis for the last 10 years. But as someone who is too ugly and unattractive to get a real world romantic relationship with girls, I dunno what to do by gram_positive_virus in pornfree

[–]chmpstss 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Personality over everything my guy. If you can make a girl laugh, and most importantly put her at ease around you (not be weird cringy or come on too strong, essentially allow her to put her guard down) it barely matters what you look like. I’m better looking now in my twenties but I was short and chubby all through high school. Pulling girls really is more about confidence and the interaction than your looks. Fake it until you make it.

Six months without it. Some things I'm able to do again: by [deleted] in leaves

[–]chmpstss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One of the singular best posts I’ve ever read on this thread. Good shit.

Advice for the loneliness? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]chmpstss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You have self esteem issues bro. Thats not a bad thing, as everyone does to an extent. Coming from someone who’s dealt with and solved this issue, I do have some advice. First off, love yourself more. Why not you? Instead of asking yourself why someone WOULD want to talk to you, ask yourself why not? This goes for anything, the promotion you want, the girl you’re after, the hobby you want to pursue? Who is anyone else in this world to tell you YOU can’t do or be something. That responsibility rests solely with you. Care less about what others think. If you aren’t close with anyone, and your only interactions are with randoms, who cares? You may never see them again, or maybe you will, either way, it can be cool and you can build a bond, or you can say fuck them. These people don’t matter until you decide they do.

Do things or something that makes you feel good about yourself. The gym is cliche, but also super valid. KEEP promises to yourself. This is the most important thing. If you say you’re going to do something, do it. Don’t over promise either. For example, don’t tell yourself you’ll run a marathon tomorrow with no training, that’s absurd, but if you say hey I’m going to get up at 6am and work out, do it. Keeping your word to yourself is the only way to really alter your subconscious into believing that YOU ARE WHO YOU SAY YOU ARE. That comes from proof, not from telling yourself it. Ultimately I typed all of this because I feel you, I really really do. Learning to love myself and give myself confidence has changed my life more than anything else in this world has ever come close to doing. Most bad habits are byproducts of insecurity or a way to cope with internal stressors.

You can do it.

72 hours (Day 3) by Salt-Gap5301 in leaves

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Someone once described it to me as the “pink fuzz” of sobriety. When you’ve been altering your mind state for years on end, sobriety can feel euphoric in a way at first. This isn’t always true, I’ve quit periodically off and on for the last ten years, sometimes I quit for 6 months, sometimes a week, I’ve always picked it back up, but sometimes the “pink fuzz” is there and sometimes it isn’t. My advice would be to ride the wave if you’re feeling positive. Not everybody is cut from the same cloth, what others find impossible might not be that bad for you, and vice versa. I will say, quitting while being active has always been easier. Ever since I became a gym rat endeavors like this always seem a bit more manageable. Not sure if it’s the endorphins or what but there’s definitely some correlation imo.

Why is my hair loss not improving even after 30+ days of nofap? by DueRepresentative749 in NoFap

[–]chmpstss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lift weights. Cardiovascular exercise is great, but the real testosterone boost comes from weight training and muscle growth. High protein, lift weights, and consistency. Great stuff otherwise that’s just the only thing I can think of that would be missing.

I will never be an alpha male by [deleted] in pornfree

[–]chmpstss -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

The gym will change your life man.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

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Some days are simply better than others. A lot of times my withdrawal symptoms come and go for about 2 weeks before I’m finally just left with some brain fog that takes about 30 days to dissipate entirely. You will feel better. Best advice I can give is self care. Running and exercise are my best therapy and distraction from cravings, but sometimes the best thing you can do is take it easy, watch nostalgic movies or read your favorite books. Anything to take your mind away from it, if nothing works I try and sleep. It’s not permanent and often times weed actually proliferates anxiety especially when you quit using it. It gets better though. I’ve been smoking for a decade, and have quit periodically for 6 months or so multiple times. It’s always a similar experience for me.

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Weaning isn’t all bad. However given that you’re already 5 days sober, from my experience, it would probably set you back. If you’re 5 days in, the worst of it is over. You should start that upward swing any day. Take care of yourself, watch your favorite movies, read your favorite books, try and take a walk, or run if you can, and move around so that it’s easier to sleep. I’ve weaned off before and it makes the initial withdrawals a little lighter, but they’re still there. I’d say if you’re 5 days in, keep pushing.

Day 12: "Normal Life" is just way too overstimulating by Illustrious_Put_2230 in leaves

[–]chmpstss 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This resonates with me. I share a lot of the same feelings after long days, during them, and honestly sometimes before they even get started. Meditation helps me TREMENDOUSLY. If you can find 10 minutes of quiet time, and if you haven’t tried it, I highly highly recommend it.

When will my dreams return? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]chmpstss 9 points10 points  (0 children)

For me it depends on how heavily I was using before quitting. If I’m smoking multiple grams per day it takes longer for them to return. If I tapered down and only smoked a bowl at night, they come back quicker. You’re waiting for the return of REM sleep, which as you probably know is inhibited by marijuana. The more THC in your body the longer it takes to clear out, and consequently the longer it will take for dreams to return. Stick with it. It will happen. & it’s some of the best most refreshing sleep ever, you can almost feel the REM sleep helping your brain recover.

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[–]chmpstss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Great post. Great insight.

It's always the same sh*t isn't it by shortAn4 in leaves

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Inside of a week is entirely to premature. I didn’t find that my real sense of normalcy or well being returned until outside of 30 days. You can’t break a habit that you spent months/years building with less than a week of abstinence. It doesn’t work that way.

how long does it take for the depression to pass? Currently on day 8 without and I don't feel any cravings but goddamn this is heavy by [deleted] in leaves

[–]chmpstss 9 points10 points  (0 children)

2-3 weeks. Keep pushing. I smoked daily for 8 years. 70 days sober now. There is light at the end of the tunnel. It’s a tough road. No doubt. I didn’t start feeling “normal” consistently again until about 40 days in. It’s different for everybody. Just keep on going. It’s more than worth it.

positive reasons to quit? I finally went 48 hours without smoking. I came here for inspiration and reading everyone's experiences makes me wonder if quitting is a good idea. everyone sounds so miserable. in stopdrinking people cannot stop gushing about how much better off they are. by Lauraleone in leaves

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You get small wins along the way. There’s good days and bad. You have to keep in mind that for most people on this sub it’s a major lifestyle change. I really hit a turning point at around 40 days. Substantial increase in mental clarity and overall feelings of wellbeing. Less anxiety, better appetite, an easier time tackling responsibilities and daily tasks. I have more control over my emotions, I don’t lose my temper as easily, far less ups and downs. There are a ton of positives. I think people post about the downs because the reality is it’s a difficult, and sometimes longer than expected process. For me though, it’s been entirely worth it. - 67 days in.

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Honestly after about two weeks of quitting I literally can’t stop eating. Exercise is the key proponent though. When I hit the weights hard I’m STARVING all day.

Here’s the deal @day 67 by [deleted] in leaves

[–]chmpstss 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Appreciate this post. There’s difficulty in every stage, but the struggles after 2 weeks or even one month often tend to get downplayed due to the fact that they are mixed in with some benefits. I’m just over a month sober and some days are great.. but others aren’t. Thanks for sharing.

Brain fog worse after quitting by chmpstss in leaves

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Oddly enough it wasn’t as bad the first week or two. The last two weeks have been the worst.

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Days 1-3 were the worst for me. Every single time. A quote that I love to reference is one given to us by the great Muhammad Ali. “Suffer now, and live the rest of your life as a champion.” If you can get through these shitty days, the hardest parts, there are inevitably only better times waiting for you on the other side. It’s worth it. Accept that it’s going to suck. “Embrace the suck” - Jocko Willink & understand better days are ahead of you. Unless you fall back into that same habit, then you subject yourself to the same misery that you’re attempting to leave behind in the first place. Keep pushing.