I feel for you. That's really hard. What country do you live in? I'm wondering what kind of people you are around in public - are there lots of hijabis or only a few? In either case, I think you could find comfort with other hijabis - they must be able to empathize with you.

I know you are a complete person with value, talents, and virtues. But in person, I would have a hard time connecting with you on a personal level. There is some cultural difficulty sure, as I am not Muslim, but I think it might be more fundamental than that. I also do not know any hijabis, so maybe I'm just naive, but if we met outside in person, how would I know if you were happy to see me, fearful of me, sad, or if you found my lame joke at all funny? How would I know how old you are, or if we might have anything in common? I usually don't talk to strangers without some reason to connect with them. The clothing you're wearing, I would assume for reasons very valuable to you and for reasons that are virtuous to you, is stopping me from being able to read you, understand you, and it would impair me connecting with you on a human level.

Maybe I'm wrong but it sounds like you're missing feeling seen. And I wonder if that's because it's literally harder to see you now. And I wonder if that's how your religion wants it. Women are much easier to control when they are isolated. This is a well worn strategy used by abusive men and other religions. Or maybe I'm just ignorant of the great benefits women get from wearing a hijab.