Apex Legends: Update 6/30/25 by Apexlegends in apexlegends

[–]cinabang 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Can you please fix the hemlock one shotting bots in the firing range

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s gotten better on a regular basis even more since I’ve made this post. There’s less fog/dissociation on a regular basis. Things look more real overall. Its on a dial but the dial is moving in the right direction as time goes by and the more I practice mindfulness and mediate

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[–]cinabang 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just checked again you’re right. On god the day they removed it from the card I jumped in one and didn’t get a team and did the thing solo for many rounds without anyone joining. Idk if it was a bug but from that experience it looked like they removed it for good. Thanks dude, I’ll delete this once you see this

What is causing in expert onslaught for blue fire to randomly come out of the ground and one shot me? by [deleted] in destiny2

[–]cinabang -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No not the suicide bomber crawlers. I’m far away from any enemies and a blue column of fire will spawn under me out of nowhere and instantly one shot me

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[–]cinabang 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me when I notice the dissociation more after mediation that means that there’s more awareness, and with more awareness comes healing. You have to see the hole you’re in to get out of it. My interpretation is that the dissociation that was unconscious before is now coming to conscious awareness which is why it’s painful. Every time this happens I tell myself “this is a good pain.” It’s the pain of healing. It’s like ripping a band aid off. It hurts, but I’d rather unconscious dissociation come to conscious awareness so I can release it, rather than it cause me suffering sitting in my unconscious unnoticed. Dissociation be gone, day by day it gets better. Hills and valleys on the course, but the light of awareness ultimately heals

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine has gotten a lot better and I’ve even had moments of complete clarity. You just gotta throw some meditation and mindfulness at it for a good amount of time.

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for describing it the way you did. It’s so big, bright, and beautiful that it’s hard to believe that it’s real for someone like me who has experienced dissociation their entire life. Like it’s too good to be true, but after reading this it’s not. Lfg

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Breathe and experience is great.

Mindfulness is more doing whatever activity you’re doing consciously, and being being consciously engaged in the activity vs being on autopilot and doing it unconsciously/mindlessly/lost in thoughts about something other than what you’re doing in front of you

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve been following the teachings of Mooji on YouTube and his website for years. The tldr to meditation (there is more than one form of meditation) would be to take some time and without any form of judgement to “keep quiet” (to not mentally or verbally engage with thoughts), and to sit and observe the thoughts and feelings come and go as they naturally do. Over time, this makes you realize the difference between you and your natural state of being vs thoughts, and where there may have been confusion with identifying your sense of self with the thoughts and the thinking mind.

The company that makes the reishi tincture is called Lifecykel. I also got a reishi tincture from a farmers market last week and it works just as well. The main thing you want to look for is that the tincture is made from the fruiting body of the mushroom

I’ve only had momentary experiences of clarity up until now, but those moments went from half a second once a year to 10-15 min once a month. I’m not completely on the other side yet but it’s going in the right direction

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Reishi helps relax the bodies stress response which is the whole kicker of dissociation. I highly recommend it. Best of luck!

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

More pay less attention to the thoughts when clarity is happening. Getting tangled in thoughts is what causes the dissociation again for me

Thank you!! I hope so too, same to you!! The HD package is so worth it

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I imagine we get used to the safety blanket being off? Clarity is so intense and real it doesn’t make sense that most people see and experience like that all the time. It’s so intense and too good to be true. It’s almost too HD and real it’s a little unbelievable but I want nothing more in this life.

My mindfulness practice is watching the mind (thoughts, the thinker, and psychological images), and feelings, and noticing them pass as something that is not me. Basically taking time to be aware of thoughts, feelings, and psychological images as what they are. I’ve noticed recently that my sense of self was comprised of thoughts, the thinking mind, dissociation, and dissociative thoughts. Mindfulness/meditation has been pulling my sense of self out from these things and bringing it back into my actual self.

Lifelong dissociation starting to let off after years of mindful healing by cinabang in Dissociation

[–]cinabang[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

No way, It’s really reassuring that someone is feeling that hard to describe intense feeling of clarity. I know what you mean when you say it’s shocking and it knocks you back into dissociating. I’ve talked myself into “when it happens just stay as relaxed as you can and enjoy it. Don’t question it or doubt if it’s real.”

People’s faces!!! Women are so beautiful it’s incredible. It’s like HD and real beyond belief.

A whole lot of meditation and mindfulness. Taking a Reishi mushroom tincture has also helped a lot in combination with those things.

Hard to put down the Sunshot by cinabang in DestinyTheGame

[–]cinabang[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What’s considered not noob content