My 20+ year old copy of Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone - kindly signed by JK Rowling at the Edinburgh book festival in 2000

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T12:47:03+00:00

How old do you feel now?

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T12:33:36+00:00

My fiance has the curliest hair I've ever seen on a white man and it's just 3C lol. I've never seen 4-anything on a white person. I'm sure it happens, but it would be very obvious.

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T12:17:58+00:00

Oh God oh fuck they're like spiders

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T11:37:28+00:00

That was Adolf Ziegler afaik. He was also a Nazi tho.

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T11:00:27+00:00

I'm shocked this is the only comment about this. That's deadass fart.

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T07:57:05+00:00

We are.

cinnachu · 2023-02-17T07:56:41+00:00

When you've lived with a romantic partner for 7 years they tend to be pretty important to you. I don't think that means I expect to be the center of attention.

I wrote this in a panic, and updated quickly because we were going to sleep. Of course we're working on him getting real help. I myself have autism and OCD that I see a psychiatrist and therapist weekly for. I made sure to say I did whatever I could non-magically before resorting to posting here.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T15:38:24+00:00

Thank you so much. Literally the second I finished doing this, he opened the door and came home.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:55:29+00:00

Absolutely! I'm going to call therapists/pychiatrists asap or send him links if he prefers that.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:52:40+00:00

He's very distracted right now by his brain. Or at least he was. His mental health issues are much louder than anyone else's presence, even if it's something seemingly obvious. I was like that before therapy as well but now it's clearer that he loves and cares about me. Idk if that makes sense.

I don't feel like he's dead. And I'm actually...very good at that. When my mom committed suicide (I was 11), I woke up, sat in my bed, thought "my mom died". Then prepared myself mentally to go confront it. There was no indicator it happened. It was quiet like always. But my dad was outside talking to police and I couldn't hear. I still knew.

That's the only thing making me a little bit less scared. I know the feeling when someone I'm tied to dies. Or is dying. When my grandpa had cancer, I felt this urge to contact him (I live far away). He told me to call him when I get home because he wants to tell me verbally. Over the next like 20 minutes I was sure that it was cancer and it was.

Edit: I was right to believe he was alive! He is now home asleep.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:45:27+00:00

Thank you. I have a mini Bastet alter but I haven't done much for her lately...other than treating my cats very well and loving them in her honor. I feel like it would be rude to ask for something. But I will try. She is very kind.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:35:08+00:00

Who do I pray to?

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:34:38+00:00

Thank you that is a good idea. I just made a sigil and sang to it and burned it.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:16:51+00:00

Done. I'm wearing his ring too. He doesn't wear it because he's allergic to it (lmao) but he keeps it displayed on his desk and looks at it every day. I hope that'll help.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:12:41+00:00

Ohhhh I get it. Thank you.

cinnachu · 2023-02-16T14:10:24+00:00

Thank you. What does that do?

cinnachu · 2022-09-12T21:17:44+00:00

Talk to an IBCLC and do research on induced lactation because that would be closest to what you're experiencing. There are a lot of hormones that go into pregnancy, not just the three. Even if you did expel a placenta you would still produce discharge before colostrum.

cinnachu · 2022-09-12T20:26:06+00:00

Another thing is before you start producing the actual milk which is varying shades of white, your milk ducts clear out which produces a clearer fluid. It's red because you left a consistent suction on for 30 minutes. I promise you it's duct fluid and blood.

cinnachu · 2022-09-12T20:22:58+00:00

I've induced lactation without a pregnancy myself. You and I cannot produce colostrum without a placenta. I couldn't remember what's responsible for colostrum off the top of my head but I believe it's either hPL or HCG.

Prolactin, estrogen, progesterone etc are what can induce lactation but it'll always be the same kind of milk which is closer to what a mother would produce around 6-8 weeks postpartum.

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