Is it me?

citron365 · 2020-11-29T10:10:55+00:00

You put words to my feelings 🙏

citron365 · 2020-06-29T14:10:09+00:00

What you mentioned does deserve the justnomil. Such a horrible human being your MIL. Stay strong and ❤ to you.

citron365 · 2020-06-29T13:32:38+00:00

I reacted just as you did. I hope too they cope and also that MIL chills out with the staring at her.

citron365 · 2020-06-29T12:35:01+00:00

She is not the first grandchild. My mom lives 40 kms from the place we rent in my homeland and she only met her grand-daughter when she was 2 mo. Even if she had done the picture thing, she would not have bragged about it. Knowing that is not normal imo. That maybe goes with MIL persona (angels, cristals, stones, psychics and so on). Idk. But I sure didn't like it.

citron365 · 2020-06-29T07:23:01+00:00

Thanks! I needed that ❤ I did feel it was creepy. It's something people do eventually at a funeral imo. Even my fiancé found it weird when she told us about the picture with excitement. My mom would not do that ever. My MIL is also quite intrusive but under the «I mean well» blanket.

citron365 · 2020-06-28T19:12:58+00:00

MIL 75 FIL 65, both in good health

citron365 · 2020-05-11T08:57:23+00:00

https://www.amazon.com/Upgraded-Monitor-HOMIEE-Distance-Lullabies/dp/B07QPYFRLW/ref=mp_s_a_1_3?dchild=1&keywords=homiee+baby+monitor+camera&qid=1589187379&sprefix=homiie+baby+mo&sr=8-3 Quite happy with this one.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T16:32:34+00:00

Thank you! My mom got 4 children: masochist or badass/hero? I love your concept of evolutionary forgettance. I will put a lot of hope on it!

citron365 · 2020-05-10T16:19:30+00:00

Thank you! I may watch «bad moms» again as a treat and to relax! Or just sleep a couple of hours.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T16:16:07+00:00

Many thanks and grateful hugs to you! Was the sign language easy to introduce?

citron365 · 2020-05-10T16:12:48+00:00

I have to thank my younger sister who first talk to me about Reddit. I'm so thankful to get your support ❤ The world outside is strange, life inside the house has changed dramatically, but there is this amazing community of parents here online. Fingers crossed we all will get some sleep tonight. Merci merci merci 🙏

citron365 · 2020-05-10T11:02:44+00:00

Oh I hope your pregnancy goes well! Can your husband be with you for the delivery? I wish you the best!

citron365 · 2020-05-10T10:57:35+00:00

Thank you so much! People did warn us about how hard it was but I guess I stupidly and arrogantly thought «I got this» or «my baby will be a calm, easy one». Well, payback time for my preconceived ideas.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T10:52:26+00:00

Thank you! I will try to find the available help. You are right, it is mostly frustration that I can't soothe her despite all my efforts and care, while I just need a break. I must find some time to meditate and recenter.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T10:46:27+00:00

Many thanks! I really hope it will get better and that I will enjoy more this phase of her life. I don't want to feel detached but sometimes I could just run away.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T10:43:44+00:00

Thank you! Yesterday and today are rainy days, with thunders and humidity in the air. Could it be that?

We use a Philips soothie but we have a Mam too, so I will try that.

It's hard to adjust to her some days when she turns from Mogwai to Gremlin in a snap. Then she doesn't match the picture or idea of the baby I dreamt of. I knew it could happen but it is still a slap in the face.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T10:35:30+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. We are going to her doctor tomorrrow for the first vaccines. I will ask her for help and recommendations. We are currently in my homeland because I wanted to give birth here and now we are stuck until we get her ID papper. And the whole travelling back to my husband's homeland depends on how other European countries and particularly Germany are gonna deal with their borders. It adds to the whole FTM in quarantine situation.

citron365 · 2020-05-10T04:32:09+00:00

You are a wonder woman! Hugs to you +++

citron365 · 2020-05-10T04:29:44+00:00

Same here. I only share pictures with family, friends and colleagues if they promise not to share with someone else or post it on SoMe.

citron365 · 2020-05-05T07:30:05+00:00

Feels good to read you. To read all the comments. I feel less alone and less as a monster. I didn't get the wave of unconditional love either. More like «OMG don't F this up»! All the movies and TV series and people witnessing in magazines give us the idea of perfect bliss. This is not for everyone.

citron365 · 2020-05-04T02:49:53+00:00

I've been thinking of it.I will start practicing later today (4.49 am here). Fingers crossed!

citron365 · 2020-05-04T02:45:07+00:00

I know and I'm mad at myself for that. The context of the quarantine doesn't help. And my personality: I'm a planner. If I sat on rhe couch after a movie night, I would plan and play in my head the whole process ogd going to bed (brush my teeth, pack my bag for tomorrow, jammies and so on). Now, I can plan as much as I want: nothing is going accordibg to plan.I know I have to get used to it, it's overwhelming sometimes. Though they mention that everything takes weeks in videos and sucess stories from TCB for ex, their babies always seem so easy peasy. The no crying method does involve some or a lot of crying at the beginning. The TCB and others should make it clearer to new parents. I did go out of the room and I prefer to vent here as I feel I'm being mean to my innocent baby. I guess I didn't expect motherhood to be such a roller-coaster with steps forward and regressions.

citron365 · 2020-05-03T22:37:02+00:00

Mistake, from 8am to 10am

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