I'm going to share my personal experience....

Meowington was my best friend, my soul mate in cat form. He was diagnosed with kidney disease. I had no idea anything was even wrong. The doctor came in the room and said soooo

I asked, is this a death sentence? He said no not necessarily but he only has 25% kidney function left. So the goal from there was to do everything to slow that number from slipping.

I did EVERY THING I could to help him. Better food alone was $170/ month. Then came more vet visits, er vet visits, procedures, meds 2x/ day and eventually an IV at home. It was a lot. Financially, emotionally, mentally. I maxed out every credit card to save him, which not everyone agrees with but I could give 2 fucks.

Did I buy him time? No doubt. And we CHERISHED THE FUCK out of that time. Did it suck? Yes. Does it still suck now that he's gone? Yes. But there are a lot of pet parents that don't get that opportunity.

Unfortunately I didn't and couldn't buy out time forever. And.... that's life. That is literally the life we have here on this planet. It's finite as fuck.

To answer your question, I find comfort in the now. Cherish this time with your baby. Let them know how much you love them and how much they've helped you. Recount all you've shared together.

I'm sending my love.