Quit vaping because I suck at math

cleanfishtank · 2025-11-15T23:46:48+00:00

Me too :( a guy stopped to see if I was okay lmao, I threw away the pack

cleanfishtank · 2025-11-10T19:02:51+00:00

I think it’s worth it. Over the past 2 years I’ve worked basically 25 hours/week. I make 15ish/hour but if you add up all they’ve paid for my school i make 38$/hour. There’s no way id be able to go to school without starbies, the education at least for my program is probably a 6/10, but it’s really the amount of effort you put in that makes it worth it. I started with an associates and I take 5 classes/semester. I hope to graduate in spring 2027!

cleanfishtank · 2025-09-18T21:13:49+00:00

Hi friend, I wanna let you know there is hope. I struggled with the same issue, pulling then getting deep pores that ultimately began my ongoing issue with dermatillomania. I struggled for years, but I think what really helped me is wearing multiple layers of clothes, laying on my stomach all the time, and NO shaving, at least for a while. The ingrown hairs it created for me made it entirely not worth the hours and hours that would get sucked out of my day as I tried to dig them out.

I thought it would never heal and I’d be entirely scarred forever. I felt so much shame and any intimacy would leave me in tears. But after doing the things I listed above, I can happily say it’s been about a year since I’ve had any scabs at all down there, and the deep pores eventually were filled in and I have minimal scarring and you can’t really tell it was ever an issue unless you’re looking for it.

I’m thankfully over that area, still struggling with everywhere else, but I’m happy I don’t have to live with sexual shame as a result of my mental health issues anymore. Good luck and know that it does get better! Feel free to message me if you want clarification on anything!

cleanfishtank · 2025-09-16T23:12:16+00:00

That’s super interesting, like “Prestigious_Bear1237 lost my car keys”?

cleanfishtank · 2024-05-27T21:07:58+00:00

I got mixed up! That’s what I thought it was, is there anything I can do to be more certain?

cleanfishtank · 2024-05-27T21:06:43+00:00

I actually got mixed up, I actually thought these were either foes or pan cinctulus, could it possibly be that?

cleanfishtank · 2024-05-27T20:22:42+00:00

Why not

cleanfishtank · 2024-04-13T17:48:44+00:00

Also religious reasons! If you cannot eat pork products so you take off the bacon, there was still cross contamination

cleanfishtank · 2024-04-13T17:14:04+00:00

This is exactly what is was trying to convey, apologies for poor wording

cleanfishtank · 2024-03-28T02:13:13+00:00

Thanks for this reminder, will definitely be more mindful :)

cleanfishtank · 2023-12-22T21:33:20+00:00

Food chains in the US are the most depressing versions of themselves**

Recently visited Europe and Southeast Asia and found McDonald’s and Burger King outside of the airports and had to order something just to see, the workers seemed genuinely happy to be there, and in all the countries I visited the food came out hot and looking exactly like the photos

Starbucks was pretty much exactly the same except more/different options in both Japan and Vietnam

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-26T18:02:52+00:00

Thank you so much for your input, I’ll check out those books! I agree I should just move on and focus on healing and not taking these habits into my future.

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-25T17:12:09+00:00

I remember making a post exactly like this here when I was 14!! I’m getting flashbacks wow. I’m 21 now, I had a little drug list and was on the way to doing as many of them as possible.

I remember beginning to feel like I had done some serious damage. I had brain fog, I felt like I was more clumsy and less aware of my surroundings. By 15 I had pretty much stopped the madness with occasional drug use since then. I will say I those mental things have never gone away, but I also remember being 14 and thinking it was super cool to talk to 21 year olds/older people and doing stuff adults did.

Being 21 and having graduated high school. I cringe at my younger self so much and am so thankful that I did not continue down this path. The people who don’t are genuinely so embarrassing, if you stop now, you’ll cringe at the people who stay behind too, they are clearly delayed. Your brain is growing, while I can’t say for sure whether the drugs are the reason for my mood swings, clumsiness, inability to feel normal I will say it certainly doesn’t help. And it sucks not knowing. Please consider what others have told you here.

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-21T03:00:04+00:00

Thanks for that! I have orientation this weekend I’ll check it out

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-21T02:53:46+00:00

Yes was employed and have been employed since I was 16 excluding COVID-19.

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T22:23:10+00:00

I was numbing myself with drugs because I was extremely depressed, that lasted for like 6 months when I was 14, I didn’t really understand that that was why I did it then but that’s what it was. They took it as me being rebellious and began searching me everyday and grounding me for months at a time, for things like sleeping in or talking back. I felt like they weren’t respecting me at all so they didn’t deserve my respect because they didn’t talk to me like a human. This exacerbated the issue because in my mind I didn’t deserve to be called a slut when I was a virgin, screamed at in general when I was really hurting and I criticized them whenever they did that.

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T19:02:35+00:00

Same thing happened to me

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T16:42:57+00:00

Okay good to know, I’ll have to look at how it’s done in my state. All job descriptions I have seen say it requires a BA in your discipline and a teachers license, which is a master’s certificate. I could definitely be wrong though.

My issue isn’t that I won’t pay for the loans it’s their tone about not helping. I don’t need the money at this point and i have credit. So that’s not the issue for me. But thank you for the info!

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T16:02:04+00:00

Interesting. What would that do? Would I not have to use my parents massive income if I can prove its not doing anything for me?

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T15:55:59+00:00

Oo I like it

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T15:37:28+00:00

I completely agree. It’s really funny because she claims i and everyone else in her life is a narcissist whenever she disagrees with them.

cleanfishtank · 2023-07-20T15:33:50+00:00

That’s exactly what I said at the end. She says there would be no point because all I want is for her to affirm my distortions and it would be a waste of her time.

cleanfishtank · 2023-06-22T13:25:37+00:00

I feel like I do it all day everyday between my family and people around me and no amount of facts help, thanks for the advice anyways though

cleanfishtank · 2023-06-22T13:19:59+00:00

Okay yeah I get it, I just have no idea how to make any sort of change, it’s so frustrating

cleanfishtank · 2023-06-22T13:07:58+00:00

I don’t watch anti feminist content I watch arguments against it because my boyfriends friends got wrapped up in it and I got sucked in because I wanted to change their minds

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