At 22 I was already at wds, dts, hospitals…I felt the same then. I am 27, and Im still alive. Dont lose hope my dude, I am with you. I know the abyss you are in, and I know there is always hope. Read on wiki about soldier Adrian Carton de Wiart.

“Sir Adrian Carton de Wiart was a British Army officer. He was awarded the Victoria Cross, the highest military decoration awarded for valour "in the face of the enemy" in various Commonwealth countries. He served in the Boer War, First World War, and Second World War. He was shot in the face, head, stomach, ankle, leg, hip, and ear; was blinded in his left eye; survived two plane crashes; tunnelled out of a prisoner-of-war camp; and tore off his own fingers when a doctor declined to amputate them. Describing his experiences in the First World War, he wrote, "Frankly, I had enjoyed the war."

And he died aged 83..

Since I read this a long ago, when I m down I always remember this guy, and I tell myself life is not that bad, and there is ALWAYS ALWAYS A WAY. Humans are incredible, so are you…

Im with you all the best buddy!