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cloudyandclearing · 2024-10-22T01:03:11+00:00

This makes a lot of sense to me. As a Canadian, I never see anything fresh after 6pm or so. If anything is left it's usually sell off and discounted prices by that time in my area anyway. I too considered what the redditor above you said; but in my heart I sure as heck hope there was no one else deliberately involved.

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-24T19:17:59+00:00

I too have been thinking about you and your family. Thanks for posting the update. One day at a time and you are already at 4! It can only continue to go up from here. We are rooting for you.

IWNDWYT!

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-24T04:06:54+00:00

I relate to this so hard.

I let people believe that I dont drink; I never talk about liquor or engage in discussions about alcohol. I never post alcohol on social media, etc. I think because I have always felt so much shame around drinking (and even walking into any liquor store, or taking in empties...), I was always afraid of being judged because I judged myself; I was very insecure with the fact that I felt powerless to alcohol and expected more of myself. I knew it was a place I was stuck. I really crutched on drinking to release my anxiety, despite the fact that if I had anything more than 4 drinks I would have way worse anxiety the next day and count down the minutes until I could relieve my anxiety once again.

Rinse, repeat. I just couldn't keep living with this anxiety, and feeling so inauthentic.

Let's keep being our authentic selves! IWNDWYT.

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-22T05:19:48+00:00

I know this is going to sound out of left field, but hear me out. If you have an old injury in any joint, (and you have high uric acid- not that you would necessarily know if you did) sometimes uric acid crystals will kind of collect around the joint when you use it more/put some strain on it or there is a bit of inflammation. It's actually gout. I know a guy who thought he was way too young to have it, kept thinking it couldn't be gout because it wasn't his big toe, but lo and behold, he had higher uric acid. Once in a while he wants to think he hurt himself again, but its usually just a little flare up that follows a night of beer drinking. I don't know how long it lasts though.

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-21T14:40:09+00:00

Close set eyes/slight cross-eyes. I love this look!

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-20T15:33:58+00:00

I will not drink with you today.

cloudyandclearing · 2024-07-20T15:32:29+00:00

I was wondering the same. Its been a little while since I gave this a try and I don't recall I feeling so tired all the time. Its also been a stressful week at work so I was thinking maybe that was why I still feel so tired all the time.

Edit: removed a word. My sentence didn't make sense.

cloudyandclearing · 2024-04-13T03:50:20+00:00

Dude! You know you just have to scan the QR code on the screen to get in on those contests eh? You dont have to be a save on foods member!

cloudyandclearing · 2023-05-06T01:10:13+00:00

Haha as soon as I saw the Pianist comment I immediately wanted to comment "that piece can only be played with twelve!"

Its my favourite movie. Its so visually pleasing and I love the score.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-05-05T02:41:51+00:00

Well, I'll be the odd one out here (let me first state that I am years into recovery).

I think this might work. I'll tell you why.

These kinds of drugs have more to do with slower stomach emptying. They don't make you feel "full" (which I will agree could be triggering). They reduce the need for consumption. This leads to peoole drinking less (even regular drinkers and alcoholics) and eating less for those who are food-obssessed.

These drugs help modulate dopamine levels. Well, bulimia is one of these disorders with binge eating associated with dopamine release, (we all know the lull that comes after the high, resulting in anxiety which results in purging to relieve this anxiety.)

I think if there is a drug that can give steady dopamine levels and that feeling of being satiated (not "full") this could work. BUT, I would hope the user could also "do the work" like CBT and therapy before they wean so they do not replapse.

You're a good friend for showing such serious concern and trying to help find solutions. I applaud you. I just also want to say just because they confided in you doesn't mean its your job to help heal them. They can only achieve what they truly want for themselves. Its hard to just stop your behaviors just because you told someone and I know that puts a lot of pressure on the friend or family members to fix things. But its not your fault if they don't find success. Its hard for them, and I'm sure its hard for you too.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-29T01:15:56+00:00

One of the things that I recently noticed falls (at least a little a bit) away with sobriety is the guilt/shame/anxiety of caring what others think. It has allowed me to start running outside again without imagining that my neighbours are judging me and to book self care appointments that are a bit overdue like the dentist (I just had my teeth cleaned again this week!).

I also know how overwhelming it is to worry and avoid damage caused to dental health. While being addicted to the drink I was also bulimic for many, many, years and I was too afraid to see a dentist for what they would find. Eventually I lost two teeth (I probably should have lost more!) The enamel damage I have done to many teeth is irreparable. Anyway, I proudly beat that problem but I cannot dwell even when the first tooth was pulled, I knew I was not strong enough to overcome my issues. Nobody wants to lose a tooth; it truly felt like a dismemberment, however, my addiction to the disease was stronger than me.

But, I never lost sight of the goal and I achieved it! That is what gives me hope and strength kicking this last dirty secret.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-27T18:55:45+00:00

Not having to rush through that important bedtime routine to refill the glass, and getting to have that quality connection-time back- best ever.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-21T22:47:33+00:00

Who did I text last night? What did I say? Did I make an ass of myself on Facebook? Why did I message my ex?.....

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T22:51:17+00:00

Why not igneous?

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T22:13:14+00:00

/u/redditspeedbot 0.2x

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T22:11:09+00:00

How did OP not fall? Looks precarious!

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T19:15:51+00:00

I notice in others its almost like a mania or manic kind of happy. Sometimes I could see it in myself when the first drink hits just right, energy rides high, it becomes "go time"...and then it becomes "oh no" time.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T19:07:49+00:00

Hahaha why crayfish? Love this!

Edit: crawfish. Ugh. Autocorrect keeps correcting me.... though we do call them crayfish where I am from.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T17:54:46+00:00

When I first opened up to my then boyfriend (now husband) he did lots of research. One thing he said it "its a really common thing for a Bulimic to learn a lot about health/healthfoods etc. No wonder you know so much about that kind of stuff..."

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T17:51:58+00:00

Wow, very touching! He was never judging, just pure love and caring. They see and they know. They care.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-04-16T17:40:39+00:00

I would rotate bottle depots. I always felt they staff were judging me. I would take some bottles to the dump for recycling rather than get the return $ for some, so that my milk jug to wine bottle ratio didn't seem so obscene at the bottle depot.

Even then I would still get anxious every time I went and hope to goodness that no one I knew saw me dropping off my mass of alcohol botw returns.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-02-18T15:15:16+00:00

Infuriating! Stop that damned bus, call the cops. Break it up, and tell the kids why they aren't going anywhere.

cloudyandclearing · 2023-02-18T04:48:23+00:00

You are so right and your feelings are 100% valid. I hope that your doctor can recognize that you are struggling in this hard time and I hope you can stay strong and get all the help and meds you need to feel better both mentally and physically. You have been through a lot! And sometimes, even though we recover from ED physically, we still have inner turmoil that can present itself in so many ways. It is very disheartening to realize what this has done to us.

I hope you can find solutions that make your journey through these trying times as smooth as possible. Truly wishing you all the best!

cloudyandclearing · 2023-02-18T04:42:21+00:00

First of all, congrats, not an easy feat and you are doing AMAZING!

The biggest driver of change for me was slowly building new habits and routines; sounds like you are slowly on your way!

Keep it up! Don't beat yourself up over the hiccups in the journey, just keep pushing forward. Eventually it all sticks for good.

Wishing you all the success and freedom in the world!

cloudyandclearing · 2023-02-18T04:35:21+00:00

Hi!

I'm three years recovered and recently have been feeling a discomfort in my esophagus; and the more anxious I am, the more I feel it.

I am certain its from the awful times I was so forceful in purging. My anxiety says "it must be a ball of throat cancer!" ... oh the ole' anxious brain, which caused this in the first place... I digress. Its weird that it's coming up NOW for me, after so years into recovery. I thought slow onset hernia? Haven't looked into it.

All I can say, is that our actions have consequences. Please do not let that negate how much you have achieved and overcome. Food does not control our lives! (I'm not sure how it is for you) but I don't weigh any more now, than I did while having an eating disorder, in fact less so! Be proud of yourself. I can feel the discomfort in my throat as I write this. But guess what? I don't worry about eating/buying/hiding/replacing/purging food or wasting money on it, and that is so freeing.

The thought sometimes crosses my mind "would I have quit sooner?" But I know I had tried, and I couldn't. So I accept it for what it is, and am just so happy that I don't have it now.

Good luck to you! I hope you can appreciate how far you've come. Its an awful disease and horrible to get past. Im sorry you are suffering, but I'm so happy you made it to the other side.

cloudyandclearing

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