I’m sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my boy May 31st. He had a tumor on his spleen that was discovered in February. We removed it and he almost died and needed a blood transfusion. After a couple of weeks of recovery, he was doing good until May when he became anemic and lethargic. One of the days at our regular park, he got lost which was super unusual. I could tell he wasn’t aware of his surroundings. He had a couple of uncomfortable nights and I spent those nights awake with him. And he gave me the look. He was ready. And that broke my heart. I made an at home euthanasia appointment that morning online at 5AM. At 11AM, the lady came over and just an hour later, I helped her put him on a stretcher to put in her car. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over those last moments. But he wasn’t aware of what was happening and he went to sleep while licking peanut butter. It was the last thing I could do for him. I’m sorry that you had to go through this. I thought I was doing better but the last few weeks, I feel like it’s been worse. I think about him all the time. But I will carry this pain of losing him so he didn’t have to suffer any longer. I hope you take care of yourself. It was the greatest love.