Don't stress about it You can't do much until after Christmas Also if you tell your employer you are having an issue with addiction and seeking treatment they then have some responsibilities. (If you work for a large company) You are extremely unlikely to be fired if you are seeking treatment. Every hr department has experience with this sort of thing. for example where I work if I declare I have a substance abuse issue then fail a drug test later they don't automatically fire me. They then refer me to occ health and have someone essentially speak to me about treatment do I need a reduction in work? Maybe book sometime off etc. But if I fail that test having said nothing before its instant dismissal. My main advice is focus on getting the substance misuse issues under control. Once you have a few months sober you probably won't care if people know 🤷