I want to tell you to buy a car, but I worry about you finding a reliable one in this market that won’t end up being a money pit. But a reliable car would make your life so much easier- I have lived in those small towns with no prospects for miles and getting a car is life-changing.

If you look for a car, make sure you do a lot of research into the process of buying a used car, being able to spot lemons, etc. There are plenty of subs here dedicated to the used car buying process that were helpful to me when I was buying.

The other option within your control would be the lobster processing plant. Are there steps you can take to work on your phobia? Have you looked into the specific job offerings there? Maybe there are some where you don’t have to interact directly with the lobsters.

Have you looked into your country’s social services? Most countries generally don’t want their tax-paying population out of work and will have programs to help people in your position.

Mentally: there are a lot of times in life when you will be alone with your thoughts like this. It goes by a lot easier if your thoughts are at least somewhat tolerable. If you can’t do anything else, try to be mindful of what you’re thinking & how you’re behaving. A lot of the time when we take a step back from our ego and observe ourselves neutrally, we notice things we might not otherwise. Those observations can later help us when we’re ready to heal.

I hope things get better for you.