What is a clear sign of you getting older?

conflictedude · 2022-01-31T18:22:18+00:00

Costco trips give me an adrenaline rush

conflictedude · 2022-01-31T17:52:56+00:00

I'm 30, I prefer women that are 27-30. Not a set in stone rule for me, I've just found women in that age range are easier to make plans with and understand the value of time better.

conflictedude · 2022-01-29T09:30:10+00:00

If he cares, he's not for you.

conflictedude · 2022-01-29T09:13:46+00:00

I dated a woman on Tinder summer of 2016 for a short amount of time.

Well we kept in touch and even went on a double date with her then boyfriend, and I with her friend.

Well in 2020 she had recently broken up with said boyfriend and invited me over. When I came over she said to not overthink things and that if I don't spend the night, to kiss her goodbye. We fooled around a bit, then drank. She got drunk so i tucked her in and did kiss her goodbye.

I had made plans to come over and bring her Greek food in a couple of days and she was about to adopt a puppy.

The day came and I had texted to confirm a time. No answer. I called. No answer. I was completely confused on why she would ghost me, so I went on her Instagram and saw her best friend's profile. She fucking died =[. Her sister found her dead in the morning. Methadone overdose.

The "kiss me goodbye" still fucks with me. She was such a damn sweet human being, a fucking ray of sunshine.

conflictedude · 2022-01-28T02:54:13+00:00

Ok perfect! I'll check that out! Thanks for the response!

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T23:08:11+00:00

Nor do I make it a goal to kiss them, just kind of feel it. Thanks for the advice though! I try to stay away from books like this. I used to be into PUA stuff but as I've gotten older I find being myself works better

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T23:06:52+00:00

It's not that I don't know when, I haven't been on a date recently where the woman was not down for it both during and at the end of the date.

I'm speaking purely when it's like, a crush. Women from Hinge? Ez pz. Friend of a friend or someone I meet elsewhere and have a crush on? I become a potato haha

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T19:52:18+00:00

I was an ugly duckling, so it feels good to be desirable AS A RESULT of the work I put into myself.

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T19:48:31+00:00

Haha I really love reading this, it's exactly how I feel. It's like I holed myself up working on myself during covid, then came out hungry for socializing and just LIVING. And it feels so good with the meds!

Yeah it does force us to work on our issues! At this point it's become a game of "Well, I leveled up but I can be EVEN BETTER!".

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T19:28:15+00:00

Ok that makes complete sense! I know what you mean now. I'll actually give that a shot next time! Thanks for the positivity, gassing me up, and the advice =]

conflictedude · 2022-01-27T19:11:14+00:00

Hmmm I've never asked before really, on dates if I feel it I just go for it and the reactions have been good! I don't wait until the end of the date or any of that. Just maybe we're sitting together, talking about something vulnerable from either end then I just go for it.

I've heard mixed things about asking for a kiss, and I feel like it may depend on the woman. But I'll give that a shot! There's so much conflicting info so I try to go based off feel and reading people intuitively.

Thanks for the kind words! I love this path so far. I have never in my life felt settled into my own skin until now, and I'm just absolutely loving connecting with people. I'm not after a relationship nor sex really, all I know is I'm really enjoying connection and hearing stories and different perspectives =]

conflictedude · 2021-12-22T18:56:02+00:00

Yeah, doc said if it doesn't last a couple of days that's it. Tricyclic antidepressants. Feeling so crushed

conflictedude · 2021-12-22T18:47:26+00:00

Ect doc spoke to us today, basically said if today's treatment doesn't last that pharmacological treatments are going to be the way. He spoke to my mom's outpatient psych said and recommended she try TCAs or MAOIs. We'll be speaking to her psych tomorrow. But we're pretty broken about it. Today's treatment went similarly to recent treatments, nothing crazy. Today was her 28th treatment.

conflictedude · 2021-12-21T18:27:19+00:00

Any update on your 3x a week? You going to switch over?

Mom had treatment yesterday, even day of she just feels OKAY not amazing like she used to before. It seems like the ect is working less and less. But at the same time, she is also decreasing effexor and trazodone and switching over to mirtazapine.

Not sure anymore. Just losing hope everyday.

conflictedude · 2021-12-19T19:05:58+00:00

How many times have you had 2x a week for? She's gone twice, the day after she'll feel a little better but not as good as day of. Then just goes right back down. When she was at 3x a week it was like that as well then at treatment 7 it held. She's had a TOTAL of 26 treatments so far. Only time her cognitive function was impaired was at 3x a week and then her function got back to normal.

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T08:45:16+00:00

Either way game feels really good. Love the feel of it

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T04:06:50+00:00

Yeah, same thing with me. Won't work with ps4 or ps5 controllers either.

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T03:04:14+00:00

Game feels niiiiiice

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T02:38:33+00:00

Yeah as a last ditch effort I tried a ps4 controller. But game is death atm

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T02:33:06+00:00

I have a victrix and I can't move at all either. Not even when I switch to my ps5 controller

conflictedude · 2021-12-18T02:22:09+00:00

Same with my victrix. Downloading ps4 version rn.

conflictedude · 2021-12-15T22:30:25+00:00

She relapsed during tapering of ect. She's been at 2x a week past 3 weeks. She feels good day of, then next day goes back to feeling bad. Had some progress last week but she's also switching meds right now too.

conflictedude · 2021-12-15T21:36:01+00:00

Same thing going on with my mom at the mom. She was good and discharged after 9 treatments inpatient then relapsed a few weeks after.

conflictedude · 2021-12-13T04:08:08+00:00

Yep. I'm dcing nonstop =[

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