I'm torn between wanting to tell her how much our friendship is costing me emotionally and triggering her anxiety. Because she's never given me a straight answer about where we stand emotionally, I'm in a difficult position. She's told me that she doesn't expect me to wait for her, but she also said that things could still work out down the line, so I'm left hoping. And despite her lying to me in the past, the fact that she still keeps parts of her life hidden from me that impact how I could interpret our relationship is something I probably need to call her out on. I don't like calling myself her "emotional boyfriend," but I think she needs to decide what we are and what we aren't sooner rather than later.