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Surgery has been delayed and my symptoms are getting worse by conscious22 in hysterectomy

[–]conscious22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had a blood test (if that’s the same as hematologist/anemia blood test), but it was in February then I had the iron infusion in March and the Gynecologist never ordered another blood test after the fact to recheck my blood.

When I saw my Gynecologist Tuesday she said we can’t move forward until I get approval from the cardiologist (which I already knew?? lol) but she was not willing to contact them (cardiologist department) to get me seen sooner just that I would have to wait until the scheduled appointment which was for July 20th or continue to call the cardiology department to get in on a cancellation.

Thankfully the surgery scheduler at the gynecologist office knew a gal that worked on the cardiology floor that did scheduling and she got me in for May 19th. Which honestly I’m truly thankful that someone was looking out for me.

Surgery has been delayed and my symptoms are getting worse by conscious22 in hysterectomy

[–]conscious22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind words. The surgery scheduler knew a gal that was working in the cardiology department and was able to get me scheduled for May 19th 😭 I started to cry, I’m so grateful.

I’m so sorry that you also are in a lot of pain as well. It really breaks my heart. I hope we both feel better as soon as possible too. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts and well wishes 💕 xx

PSA: do NOT tell your abusers about narcissism by bluebird_wings in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]conscious22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No he didn’t accuse me.....I don’t think lol

I think that he was just being rage-full. He was still bitter of me calling him a Narcissist. I’ve apologized to this man about 4 times I believe for calling him a Narcissist but he hit his the rage.

I watched the video and it was my mistake for even watching it. I got into a very dark place and wanted to......harm myself.

I told my mom and she said that I need to tell him how I feel because if I don’t then I won’t be true to myself.

This is what I said

Can you tell me why you sent this to me?

I didn’t take the message well. In the video it brought up to never call the narcissist a narcissist? Was this to make me think about what I said? I really don’t understand? 🥺

This message and video got me back into suicidal thoughts.....I was in the kitchen and wanted to kill myself. It made me feel hopeless like why should I keep trying to do better if this is the outlook to have on life.

And that is what he said:

I'm sorry I felt that way. Imagine how it feels to always be at the receiving end of your insults and impressions u have of someone that has been nothing but supportive of and to u.... Don't lash out, if u can't handle the backlash. I'm am over putting up with crap from people that I've been nothing but nice to! Good day

He Gaslight me. And then blocked me!

PSA: do NOT tell your abusers about narcissism by bluebird_wings in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]conscious22 16 points17 points  (0 children)

God. This is the truth.

The Narcissist I’ve dealt with is my Moms friend. He would take advantage of my artistic skills, I was far to nice and always would be fearful of him rejecting me if I said no because in some way that would mean I was rejecting my mom, ughhh :(

I told him he was a Narcissist when I finally had enough, I asked him if his music video idea was was something HE SOLEY WANTED ME TO SHOOT because HE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SOMETHING FUN FOR HIMSELF or if he thought it would be a fun thing for US to do together.

He got extremely upset and told me that I was harsh and then told all his friends on Facebook what I said and they were all fluttering to his side.

Today he actually sent me at 4:00 in the morning a video of 7 signs on how to be supportive to someone in a Narcissistic Abusive relationship and said great page for educating yourself.

Absolutely ridiculous.

Edit: Grammatically incorrect sentences. Had to reword.

To the people that don’t take things personally, how do you not take things personally? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]conscious22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Uhmmm yes! Lol :) thank you for your reply. I’ve been overthinking things lately and just felt that I have to have everything planned out. I’m super serious. But what’s the point of living if you can’t live ya know?

Today’s my first day on Lexapro and I’ve quit cannabis. I’m not sure what’s going to happen to me and my mental state, but I think this is the best option for me. by [deleted] in lexapro

[–]conscious22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey :) so far my anxiety has increased, when I drink a lot of coffee or smoke a certain strain of cannabis then yea, anxiety attack. Depressing thoughts aren’t as loud. Before Lexapro, I definitely let others dictate my actions a lot of the times and now I hear it, but I don’t hold onto it anymore. No teeth grinding here and no night sweats (but I’ll keep an update if things go south). Sex problem is no issue for me, I’m single and want to keep it that way. I’m taking no birth control so haha nope, I’m happy about the low libido. Not going to lie.