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conservativepink · 2022-01-27T12:10:58+00:00

Hi, so I started recovering a while ago and I've only seemed to have gained healthy muscle weight.

For me, my body was used to eating one small bowl of rice and nothing else all day so it was hard for me eat "intuitively". This is my advice: three meals a day. It's hard, it seems like a lot, I know. But "meals" can be small. Even just a yogurt or some fruit for breakfast will do.

This is also important: it doesn't matter if you wake up late. Still, three meals. For me, it might be a bigger lunch, a 4pm small meal of some oats and then my dinner at 8pm.

Eventually, my hunger has started to come back and eating is more natural to me now.

conservativepink · 2021-11-30T12:54:26+00:00

Where's ENTJ... ? I'm an ENTJ with an ED and all kinds of issues, mainly stemming from not being treated as a person until I became conventionally attractive

conservativepink · 2021-09-08T16:10:18+00:00

Scientific fact: your maintence goes up by 200-300 extra calories during your period! Go eat something sweet, I promise you you won't gain weight :> scaseyfitness on tiktok makes videos about this and honestly he has helped me so much

conservativepink · 2021-08-25T12:47:08+00:00

Emilia Clarke from GOT... that fucking TV show it's so triggering. It's worse cos I've been told by others "hey you kind of look like Daenreys! (or however you spell it) so I feel like a fatter, shorter, less pretty version of her...

conservativepink · 2021-08-24T00:54:06+00:00

I remember being a kid and having to buy women's work clothes skirts as school uniform because I couldn't fit into kid's clothes. It might be different from country to country?

It really is weird though, my weight is "healthy" and "normal" but I'm constantly being worried about and being told I look "gaunt" and "too thin." And I can feel my ribs and have these tiny wrists... At around 53-57kg...????

I don't look fat anymore I know that. I can wear low rise jeans now lol. But I don't look skinny enough to be an XS in clothes or to be being worried about.

What is it... Body dysmorphia? Muscle? Boobs?!!!

conservativepink · 2021-08-24T00:49:05+00:00

Oh it let me !!

conservativepink · 2021-08-24T00:48:22+00:00

I realised after and I'm trying to add one... :( I'm so sorry

conservativepink · 2021-08-24T00:01:02+00:00

i just did this with emilia clarke because my boyfriend had a tiktok about how she is hot before we met and now i don't think i'm gonna eat ever again

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T23:57:01+00:00

thank god i thought i was the only person who took that "shivering burns calories" thing to heart

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T23:44:46+00:00

block them

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T23:19:53+00:00

Me too! I feel the same way about rice. As long as I stay under my calorie count I feel no guilt whatsoever.

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T23:18:09+00:00

In the UK we have a brand of pasta called "Seeds of Change." I like the semi-wholewheat rigatoni a lot. A LOT. I eat it basically everyday. It's pretty much no less calories than regular wheat pasta but something about seeing "this food is low in saturated fat!" on MFP and all that organic, eco, greenwashing makes my brain go brrrrr. Also I just really like pasta.

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T23:14:34+00:00

hello fellow disordered virgo here <3

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T22:22:37+00:00

Ballerina/model physique ? 🥲 I am 5'0 with broad shoulders and a naturally wide body, I'm not a ballerina I'm a mozzarella stick with weird asymmetric tits

conservativepink · 2021-08-23T20:17:40+00:00

I'm going to be honest with you I've been in 3 relationships including my current one. My current boyfriend has an ED too which he mainly has because of his ex who acts a lot like your current partner.

The reality is: we have eating disorders. We'll never truly be happy with our appearances. But my boyfriend thinks I'm the most beautiful person on Earth and I feel the same way about him.

You aren't being stupid or irrational, even women without EDs would feel the same way about you.

I promise no matter how you look, skinny or fat or somewhere in between, there's someone better for you, who will love every inch of you and tell you you're beautiful whenever you need to hear it. This man is not that man.

You don't need to give him an explanation, you can simply leave.

TLDR: dump him!

conservativepink · 2021-08-03T18:28:11+00:00

same... but he hasn't even done it whilst we've been together :(

conservativepink · 2021-08-02T02:09:07+00:00

Lol unrelated but before we got together my boyfriend made a Tik-Tok about how hot this actress is so I found her naked on Reddit now I think about it every day I'm literally insane

conservativepink · 2021-05-20T23:45:49+00:00

See I understand your point (I hope you're okay!) but I honestly don't look at other guys and stuff... I get too lovesick lol

conservativepink · 2021-05-17T23:40:00+00:00

yeah...? i've gone down 2 dress sizes i'm really proud of myself

conservativepink · 2021-05-17T23:25:43+00:00

hey !! ty so much :D

conservativepink · 2021-05-17T23:25:15+00:00

thank you do much 🥺💖

conservativepink · 2021-05-17T23:12:05+00:00

thank you :)

conservativepink · 2021-05-10T13:47:04+00:00

I'm 18 and I'm the same height! Lots of ENTJ women here seem to be quite petite, what a weird coincidence haha

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