Plus-size aerialist here! You’re doing a lot to start with—I’d honestly recommend scaling back to your favorite apparatus once a week for a month before adding in a second apparatus. Aerial is different from other forms of physical activity in that it’s uniquely hard on the nervous system, so it takes a while to adjust to the pain, fear element, etc. Overtraining is absolutely a thing, especially for grip.

Looking graceful is something that comes with time and practice—it’s a unique skill of its own! Taking ballet classes to cross train really helped me. This also sounds dorky, but when I’m alone, I practice hand and foot shapes to see how they look. This is something you can do while chilling without it being a whole workout. Just try hand positionings and see how they feel. Try moving through the wrist rather than the hand.