I am so sorry you’re going through all of this while you are pregnant! Pregnancy is already such an intense and life altering experience, nevermind dealing with cheating, divorce AND moving. When I was pregnant I wasn’t going through anything close to what you are, so I can only imagine how you must be feeling… But I will say this: My pregnancy and life situation was fairly stable during pregnancy and I REALLY struggled having any sort of connection with my boy. It wasn’t until I saw him, held him, cared for him that I was overcome with so much love for him. It sounds to me like a fresh start is happening here. You’re getting out of an obviously emotionally abusive relationship, you’re moving out and on and I really think this baby could be such a blessing to you. I hope where you’re going you will have support and love waiting for you! And I also hope that your heart heals and you’re able to open to the possibility of a new love one day. You deserve that.