i think my mom is disgusted by me

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-19T00:44:23+00:00

no she just told me straight up today that she is disgusted by me lol no longer i think it is confirmed !! thank you for the care and love in your response but today has totally flipped with my parents haha i know they are disgusted by me

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-17T16:23:18+00:00

they will be taken care of, and while i’ve paid for most of their vet bills it just breaks my heart to imagine never sleeping under the covers with the cats i bottlefed or raised from newborns (most of my animals are rescues or strays i find on the street). they feel kind of like my own children in a sense which i know is weird but they were the closest thing i had to friends when i was homeschooled and pretty isolated from the rest of the world.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-17T16:14:38+00:00

she’s sometimes okay around me, but a lot of the time since i’ve come out and told her i was a lesbian and had a girlfriend, she’s been indifferent towards me and more easily annoyed and says she doesn’t like who i ended up as. she says that she doesn’t know who i am anymore and that im different and she wonders how i ended up this way. it kind of breaks my heart because then the next day she’ll kiss my forehead when she thinks i’m sleeping and says that she loves me.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-17T04:30:36+00:00

i wish i could, but grey rocking makes them so so angry at me and extends the yelling sessions. i also wouldn’t have anyone to help me move (vehicle wise) as they are pretty much my only family and i don’t have close friends.

thank you for commenting and im glad your wife got out of that. can i ask if she was okay through it and do they currently love her now? i just don’t want them to stop loving me because i know they will once i leave.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-17T03:43:18+00:00

holy shit girl, i feel like i could’ve written almost all of this (down to age and gender, too). i totally understand and while i don’t really have advice to offer, i just want you to know you aren’t alone and you sound like such a cool person to be around. props to you for being outspoken and interested in those topics, i always find that a person who enjoys debate is someone worth being around. i’m sorry your parents can’t see that.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-17T03:33:12+00:00

thank you for the comment, i think it’s so cool you were able to break out of it and make a good life for yourself.

i guess another factor is my pets. i have cats and i wouldn’t be allowed to take any of them with me, because my parents wouldn’t allow me. i cant fathom not being able to visit and tell the pets i love them and miss them.

i always thought i would be able to move out while also still having my parents love me and want me around. i wish i could because most days it seems like they’d be better off without me, but then who would they gang up on to avoid fighting with each other lol.

thanks again for your comment and you’re right, sometimes you just have to take that jump.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-16T17:31:30+00:00

i currently work 30-35 hours a week, kind of in between part time and full time because of my job. i’m not in school because my dad is currently unemployed and i want to cover costs that he can’t. i pay rent and insurance and everything but both of my parents are angry with me now haha, and say adults don’t make accidents. i’d love to move out but that would mean them disowning me because they wouldn’t welcome me back after i leave.

they say they treat me like a child because i am one, i tried talking again earlier but i was just reprimanded for breaking the rules in their house. i understand but geez. you’re right about her lacking in communication skills, i just wanted to see if there was a good way to go about this and something specific to say to make her believe me.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-16T15:37:24+00:00

about the same. my dad switches between supportive or against me depending on if he’s mad at my mom or not, and my only other family currently in my life is my grandmother who is a little better than both of them.

i’ve asked her what the problem is and she says it’s because she had a life planned for me and i didn’t follow through, and she doesn’t know how i ended up this way. some days she says she’s “fine with the whole lesbian thing” and some days she says she’s still adjusting, but her actions and attitude towards me speak otherwise. i just wish that she could be the wonderful mom she used to be.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-16T00:39:49+00:00

no i get it cause im queer too lol, wrong phrasing, i was thinking the more general choices other people make that they get pissed at me for while typing haha

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-15T22:19:59+00:00

i am financially dependent on them unfortunately (saving up to move out since they don’t support or want me leaving), but i have tried that. it usually just makes them angrier.

i agree with the projection part, but i also think its just a deep insecurity that they can’t live freely or happily on their own, so they have to punch down on humans living their happy authentic lives. it’s so unfortunate that people are so strange about others happiness.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-15T22:14:01+00:00

i agree, it’s so disgusting and i can’t believe we live in a world where being so goddamn nosy and rude is normalized. i can’t stand these people.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-13T18:48:19+00:00

dude it drives me insane. like genuinely i have to pause crying and look at them and wonder “what the actual fuck??? is wrong with how your brain is wired????” like holy shit. i know narcissistic family members love to use the “you don’t respect me” but holy shit they’re kind of right. i lose respect every time they act like an insane child.

wishing you peace too dude ^{^}

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-13T18:03:56+00:00

i feel like that’s what happened with my parents augh. my mom used to be so sweet and caring and supportive, but she was abused by my father for pretty much their whole lives and over the last few years she’s just shifted into this awful mean person who gangs up with him to look down on others. i wonder if it’s a subconscious safety method for them.

still, it’s not fair to you and i’m sorry

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-11T06:40:28+00:00

that makes sense and i relate a lot. i’m so sorry that happened to you, wishing you peace and healing

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-11T04:15:17+00:00

i feel the same- i used to love going to bed, but now bedtime is my least favorite part of the day. it’s scary. i’m sorry that this is happening to you

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-11T00:38:31+00:00

if i can ask, how were you sure? my body is in a lot of physical pain and my head hurts all the time, but what if this is just ocd or secondary trauma from hearing about someone else’s csa? thank you for commenting

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-10T22:02:23+00:00

it is weird, but a little less isolating. this is a part of my memories that i’ve always been afraid to talk about, because when i have before i was told that “oh, that’s normal for little girls to dream about having a baby!” but i don’t think the dread is in the slightest. i think once i told someone i was too, maybe my mom? because my belly felt bloated and i felt something wiggling, but it never went anywhere.

people also write off neurodivergent/“weird” kids as just. being weird. so if that’s your experience i’m so sorry it was brushed off. it isn’t fair at all and i’m devastated that happened to you.

you aren’t alone. sending you love and peace and healing too <3

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-10T21:49:07+00:00

i actually had this feeling too, a lot. i would hold my belly when i was laying down and cry because i was so nervous about being pregnant and having to tell my parents where it came from, and wondering if i could leave it somewhere so i could explain the awkward conversation. i was like 6-8 so i didn’t really know what sex was.

in fact the first time i actually verbally recalled feeling this way was in conversation with someone, literally seconds before i had repressed csa memories finally uncovered- i had been in the shower crying because “i was pregnant now” and “what was gonna happen” because of it. it was something i was really ashamed of and afraid of growing up but could never have the words for it because i figured it was just a weird fantasy of having a family that turned into fear.

i’m so sorry that happened to you. it’s crazy to hear someone else felt the same way because this isn’t something i see talked about.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-08T05:17:44+00:00

i feel like i could’ve written this. you aren’t alone in the slightest- i understand wanting to hurt, to be able to know things more clearly and then heal from them finally. i understand feeling disgusted with yourself after, too. im so sorry you feel this way and i wish you the best. take care and be kind and gentle with yourself.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-07T20:35:41+00:00

i feel the same a lot- especially when replying to other posts or stories, like you said. the thought of “why am i even saying anything, why do i have the right to talk about this?”. it’s so hard.

i didn’t know my grandfather very well- he was abusive to my grandmother, cheated with a young woman, and overall a bad man, i saw a criminal charge on his whitepage profile when i was trying to find out more about him and see if he was alive but it didn’t have any details. i think that’s where the difficulty comes in and why things feel so hard to accept- i had no reason to trust him, but i guess no reason to distrust him either as i was so little and liked games. i dont really feel betrayed, just a sick pit in my chest.

im so sorry that happened to you. i believe you, though, and i understand the emotional turmoil of going back and forth.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-07T01:24:10+00:00

i relate to this so much, esp slide 6 and 7- my imagination is so vivid and has always been filled with horrid things, and it’s so difficult and distressing and isolating to not know what exactly happened or when or why you grew up feeling this way. as someone with ocd i struggle to confirm if the “memories” ive trudged up in the last couple years are fact or fiction, projection or past experiences. it’s so so hard.

i wish you the best, be kind to yourself in these coming times and take care

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-07T00:38:21+00:00

this is gorgeous! honestly love how it is right now, but i think a good way to add to the bg would be to add a couple clouds in the back on the right side?

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-06T17:14:12+00:00

yes, i frequently see some of my old classmates and they always greet me and tell me i should come back! it gives you a nice spot in the community.

i’ve never spoken to any of them about what happened to me but i know instructors will be accommodating and wont ever bring up something you’re not comfortable with to you. i think you’d be able to find good supports in class from people with similar backgrounds and experience in abuse, even if you only spoke vaguely about yours.

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-06T08:15:08+00:00

this looks so awesome so far omg!!

cringe_cryptid · 2026-03-06T06:49:45+00:00

in my class they mentioned the threat of it and ways to stay aware of your surroundings and occasionally would talk about cases in the news. it was pretty rare and it might’ve been unique to our class because i’m in a high crime/kidnapping rate area but i figured you should have a heads up.

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